Take Me Home (GirlxGirl) (Lesbian)

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Alex's POV

(The Reason - Hoobastank)

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"I love you."

She whispers in my ear and I come back from my own thought. Suddenly I look at her, she's crying so hard until I can't see her eyes to find the truth.

What? She loves me? She loves the broken-mess Alex? Is she joking? She turns her body and leaves my room. Is this the last time we can see each other? She tells me that earlier. Is this for real? Why I can't think straight right now? Oh, right. I'm gay.

Wait, what? That's not what I mean.

She loves me? Logan loves me? Is she out of her mind? Why does she love me? I'm nothing, she can find someone more normal than me though. But again : why me?

Shit. She loves me! Logan loves me! Fuck, why I have to realize now after she's out of my room? Stupid!

I walk out from my room but find no one, not even Heather. Fuck. I fuck up. I mess up.

That's what you're good at, isn't it? My mind says. Let someone go and blame her. But the fucking truth is you are the one who let them go, you're just a pathetic human being!

"Shut up!" I hold my head and shake them hard to let that stupid mind go away. "Shut the fuck up!"

I see everything is blurry and I think the world is spinning. I don't know what happen. But before I can think what it is, the darkness drag me from the real world and I pass out right at the moment.

***

Logan avoided me. All week long. She really gave me space but I couldn't figure it out what I have to do. She avoided me in school, she didn't even bother to search for me in the bleachers, she didn't come to my house, she didn't text me, she didn't call me and clearly, she avoided me.

I feel empty. I feel the loneliness more and more. Logan isn't there anymore. I'm mad at her before I know the truth. But now when I know the truth, Logan isn't there. Does she really give me space or she hates me already?

I'm counting the days when we are apart. Now, it's day eight. I sit with Heather in Glee Cafe, looking down at my black coffee and thinking what I should do.

"Chase after her." Heather says for the umpteenth time since she knows Logan has given me space.

"Maybe she hates me." I mumble. "She avoided me."

"She gives you space to think, Alex." Heather says. "She loves you, you like her. So, what are you gonna do? Standing like an idiot and let her go just like that? Come on, Lex. I know you're better than this."

I groan. "What if I can't make her happy if she's with me?"

"She definitely is happy with you." Heather responds. "Everyone can see it. And you're happy with her too, you know."

I look at Heather and raise my brows. No, I don't ask a question, I just realize that Heather is right. I'm happy when Logan is with me. But Heather talks about my gestures.

"She changed you a lot, Lex." Heather starts. "First thing first, you let her drive your one and only favorite and lovely car. You're not even allow me to drive your car whatever your condition is. I am your best friend, Lex. So she definitely is special to you.

"Second thing is, you brought her to The Hill. The only place that you'll never take me there since your 'past' no matter how hard I beg you to. Third, she has seen your anger state. She calmed you down, you can't deny that one. She stayed with you when you were at your worst.