Take Me Home (GirlxGirl) (Lesbian)

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Alex's POV

(Untitled - Simple Plan)

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I count the days on my calendar. It's been two months since Logan visited my mansion and our little 'break up'. She tried to do anything to reach me back there but my state was kicking me in and it won't go away until now.

Do you know how it feels when you don't want to talk to anyone including your own girlfriend? Yeah, I feel that now for the past two months.

It started when I brought Logan to my mansion where the memories of my family lived. It was like a one click and then you started to shut people out.

I don't know how to explain to Logan so I decline every call from her and just let it goes straight to the voicemail.

Heather is busy with her soccer schedule since she has a competition on her final year and she is eager to win the championship. I barely talk to Heather too, on classes we just talk a common thing.

I don't mention to her about Logan after she visited me and told Heather that we are okay so she doesn't need to worry and focus on her game only.

Jan, 1
"Happy New Year, Alex! I hope you're doing okay out there. I just woke up, I'm sorry my voice sounds like a frog, hihi, anyway, uh, I miss you Alex. Call me back.

Jan 4
"Hey, Lex. I just got out from grocery store. I'm alone right now, not with Brie like the first time we met here. Anyway, how are you doing? I hope you're okay. I miss you and please call me back."

Jan 7
"Hello, what are you doing now? I miss you, though. Why didn't you call me back? Oh, right. We were over, *hiccup* but I still love you, Alex. So much. I miss *hiccup* you so bad. I want you right *hiccup* now —No, Brie. Don't.—Oops, I'm on the *hiccup* phone right now."

Jan 12
"Good morning Alex, I hope you have a great day. I hope you're okay out there. Don't do anything to hurt yourself, okay? I miss you, I hope we can talk soon. If you want, just call me back. I'm waiting for you."

Jan 15
"Good night, Alex. Have a sweet dream. I miss you."

Jan 19
"Okay, I don't know why I call you in the middle of the night but *sniffle* I miss you. So much. I hope we can *sniffle* talk about us since we *sniffle* didn't talk about it properly. I'm sorry I disturb you right now. Good night."

Jan 24
"Alex? I miss you."

Jan 26
"How are you? I hope you're doing okay."

Jan 29
"Hey, it's me, Logan. Uhm, I don't know why you ignored me this whole time but if I did something wrong in the past, I'm sorry. I didn't mean anything to hurt you. I just wanted to talk Alex, for a closure, that's all. I don't want to ask you anything. Just a simple talk about us since we're hanging like this. Uh, just call me back."

Jan 31
"Hey, it's me Logan, just in case you forgot about me since you didn't call me back for a month now *chuckle* I just want to say, have a good night."

Feb 3
"We might be right, we might be wrong, I'll stay with you, no matter where we belong."

Feb 7
"I didn't think it was wrong when I have loved you for so long."

Those voicemails ended on that day, meant two weeks ago. I kept it playing on repeat for these two weeks because I didn't know why I did that. She didn't send me any messages or calls again. She just left. That is what I wanted, right? No, I make her leave because I don't want to hurt her more.