Red Rose (Harry Styles Fanfiction a.u)

Chapter 14

Clarissa P.O.V

I awoke on a bed, i couldn't remember much of what had happened but all i know is that I heard something that tore my heart to bits. It hurt more then when i lost my first child. I think its because i raised her for two years, i got to know her personality. She was sweet caring and loving. Even though she was only two she knew me better then any would of.

I rolled over and what i seen made my heart stop, Harry was curled up in a hospital chair sleeping. His face was covered in tears, he was still crying in his sleep.

I sort of felt bad for him I know I shouldn't but just think of it. He meet his daughter for the first time and only time. He has to be feeling so guilty right now.

Rolling onto my back I sighed and closed my eyes, wishing that this was all a dream that somehow i would wake up in my apartment with my two children. But I knew this wasn't a dream it would never be just a dream it was reality and I had to live with the fact that she isnt coming back. That I have to actually plan a funeral for her and all I really want is to hold her one last time.

Harry must of awoken but didn't realize that I was awake because he started crying. I rolled over and looked at him, he held his head in his hands and was bawling. I climbed slowly out of the bed and knelt in front of him. " Harry " I mumbled to him, he instantly took his hands away and looked at me " I'm sorry " he cried " I'm such a asshole, if only i stayed and been a father i would of known her " he started crying again but harder.

" Harry you need to calm down " i told him grabbing his hands softly. " You need to calm okay, we will get through this together but right now we really need to be there for Joshua he is going to be lost for a while but he needs to know he has us " I told him looking him directly in the eyes. He just nodded staring away from me.

It's been two long days after Darcy and right now we a getting ready for her funeral, it hurts to know that your own child died before you did. That you got to do more than your child but that's life really things happen for a reason and all i know is that she's looking down on us and her twin.

I wrote a beautiful speech for her today and Im putting in her teddy that her Aunty gave her not long ago. I sighed as I stared in the mirror, I couldn't even be bothered dressing today. I wore a simple black dress with my hair in a bun. I sighed and sat on the bed softly.

Tears threatened to spill again and I wasn't going to let that happen I had to be strong.

I sat at the front of the church, right in front of me was her coffin, i couldn't look at it anymore. Harry sat next to me holding a way to happy Joshua, I was glad he came today. It was turn to speak I sighed and stood up walking to the front near the coffin. I couldn't even look inside to see my baby girl.

" good morning " I mumbled " thank you everyone for coming out here today, to celebrate the short but happy life Darcy-Lea had lived " I swallowed back tears " I wrote this small poem for her " i said as i grabbed the piece of paper,

" Could I have another moment

Another kiss, another smile
One more chance to watch you sleep
Or just to sit awhile

Ours to keep, or so we thought
We found we were mistaken
Like most of those who've lost a child
We felt we were forsaken

When I watched your life play through my mind
I can't believe I failed to see
The silhouette of angel wings
There to set you free

I no longer feel so angry
You were heaven's all along you see
Our time will come to be with you
To share eternity, Good-bye Darcy-Lea Anne Styles " I ran down the stairs and out the doors, I was in tears I couldn't take this day anymore.

I was now in Harry's arms as they lowered her coffin into the ground, this would be it the last time to see her. I was hysterical and I'm glad Harry was there. Anne held Joshua close while i latched onto Harry. I didn't want to let go scared that something else would just slip through my fingers.

I know she is safe with her elder brother or sister that Harry and I had lost years before and Im hoping they are looking after her dearly.

She will be missed down here but the heavens needed a new angel.

Authors note: This was so hard to write I nearly started cring. Please leave feedback xx