Don't Watch Me Cry

Chapter 18

Nali Pov
I was doing some online school work , it was like 2 in the morning but i couldn't sleep and graduation is in a couple of days , im all caught up but ofc we gonna get assigned work ... ugh

It's not alot of work but ... you know still . My birthday is also next month and Sage wants me to have a party and HUGE party and im kind of down for the idea cause why not

Leon and I we rarely speak anymore , he keeps speaking on Kasim , he sounds insecure and idk why he looks good he just keeps bringing up this stupid ass comment Kasim made on my post

Kasim is a dickhead fr

Zayne and I have been hanging out and I missed my sweet baby ... yea Kasim hung out with us but it was nothing crazy between us .

I was talking to my psychologist about Kasim and I and she says that we are still inlove with eachother.. from what it seems and I keep telling her that he has a girlfriend but she said that doesn't mean anything , he needed a distraction but he got in too deep

Kasim and I are too complicated for my brain to even comprehend and i don't even think we gonna get together at the rate we going at

Our love for eachother is so consuming it can be a bit ... what's the word ... unhealthy at times and i don't want that . I want a healthy love nothing toxic and that's exactly what we are toxic .

We can never give eachother a chance , we aren't good at communicating it's just not our time to be together. Like imagine if we were together right now it would be such a mess omg

I got done with my school work and I even finished the work that's due for the week so i don't have to do it cause no

I then began to watch a movie on netflix called Someone Great .. it's good so far

I then heard my door open

I looked over and saw zayne

"come here what happened baby ?" i said putting him on the bed

"I had a bad dream" he said rubbing his eyes

"aw baby"

he layed down next to me and he was watching the movie at first but he fell asleep i just chuckled

my phone then rang

it was Kasim .. what the heck

me : Hey
Kasim: Nali can i come over , i need someone to talk to ?
me : ofc

we hung up and went back to watching the movie

I heard the door ring and I went downstairs and I answered it

we went upstairs and i made space for him on the bed and he sat down besides me

"what happened ?" i said

he looked like he was crying

"Nali my mans died yo" he said

"omg what happened ?" I said sitting up

"niggas was sitting outside , chilling you know Black , Aiden , Rick & Bdot . This car spin and started shooting , Aiden got shot in the head and fucking died bro i swear to god when i catch these niggas it's over" he said as his voice roared at the end

I just grabbed him and hugged him as he cried into my neck
"it's gonna be okay im here im here" i said as i rubbed his back

he got done and wiped his tears , "fuck i probably look like a bitch" he said chuckling

"you don't look like nobody's bitch , it's okay to cry love , your friend just died .. what do you expect ? to just brush it off as if it's nothing he was a brother to you ofc your going to be hurt and angry" i said grabbing his hand and wiping his tears , i even started to cry