Amnesia (L.H.)

1

Sydney, Australia

I hear the horrible sound of my alarm going off, I groan as I roll over in bed. I grab my phone and start scrolling through twitter. A message from my best friend, Kelsey, pops up. We met back in middle school and have been inseparable ever since. We have done everything together, concerts, traveling the world, and watching our 4 best friends rise to fame. Yes, our best friends are Five Seconds Of Summer, the Australian band that took the world by storm.

"The boys are in town, do you wanna come see them?" It says, I lie my head back on my pillow. Now, you're probably thinking, why wouldn't she go see them? Why the hesitation? In every group of close friends, there's always some romantic desires among the friends. Luke and I had those desires and we dated for almost two years. It was a very happy relationship up until the last three months. Luke is on top of the world, he loves what he does and is so passionate about what he and the boys are doing. Sometimes when you get that high in your career, you can forget the people who were there before then. Luke and I no longer had that spark that we used to have, there was no heat, no passion. I haven't seen him since the break up, 6 months, I have been avoiding all of them, well except Ashton.

Ashton and Kelsey, if that isn't your classic boy-next-door love story, well it hasn't happened yet but trust me it will. They've been neighbors since before I knew them. Their moms are best friends, I like to think that's how Kelsey and I will be when we get older. Kelsey and Ashton grew up together and Ashton has always been there for her, and me. He has become very much like my older brother. I can't imagine those two without each other. Recently, Kelsey and Ashton have started having feelings towards each other but neither of them want to tell the other. Somehow they both have confided in me to help them get each other.

"Yea, I guess" I respond and set my phone down. I roll out of bed, grab my over sized friends sweatshirt, and walk down the stairs. I make myself a cup of coffee while sitting down to eat some yogurt with strawberries. I hear my phone go off so I go grab it.

"I'm picking you up in 45 minutes" Kelsey replies and I quickly run to finish my breakfast. I put on my everyday makeup, foundation, concealer, and mascara, putting my hair in a bun. Then I run to put on my pink spaghetti strap top with a white tennis skirt. As I'm putting on my shoes, I hear Kelsey honk the horn.

I run outside and get in the car. Ashton came along so I sit in the back.

"Guys, I don't know about this" I say, they look at each other and then back at me.

"It will be okay, they miss you, it hasn't been the same without you there." Ashton says, reassuring me. After driving for a few more minutes, we pull into the driveway. We all get out and walk to the door. Kelsey rings the doorbell and literally two seconds later, Calum opens the door.

"Kelsey! Jocelyn!" He yells, very loudly.

"Jocelyn?" I hear Michael question in the background, he pops up behind Calum. I run over and give them hugs. I see Luke standing farther back in the room. I walk over to him and give him a hug.

"How are you?" He whispers in the hug.

"I'm good, how about you?" We release and he stands with his hands on my sides.

"I'm good, I missed you" He replies, I give him a little grin.

"I've missed you too" I say, turning around to see the others watching us like hawks.

We sit down on the couches and start catching up. The last time we were all together, we were in LA at the boys new house. We all had a lot to drink and were having the time of our life together. It was right before the boys left for their Sounds Live, Feels Live tour. They were excited to see their fans every night but not so excited to be so far from home. Kelsey and I sadly weren't able to go see a show, but now they are here for the Australian leg of the tour, and we have tickets for tonight's show.

"I am so excited to see you guys perform tonight!" I say.

"Speaking of that, we should probably get ready and get down to Hordern Pavilion." Calum says, Kelsey and I get up and head to the door. We go to my apartment to get ready for the concert. I start straightening my hair as Kelsey pulls out her makeup bag. 

"So what was that little moment between you and Luke earlier?" Kelsey asks, putting on her red lipstick.

"I don't know, just because you break up doesn't mean you don't still love and care about each other. I know I'm the one who ended things with him but I still have those same feelings when I see him, I just know it would never work with us. We tried it and I almost lost him, I did lose him. I don't want to jeopardize losing him and the other guys forever." I respond, putting the finishing touches on my hair. 

We finish our hair and makeup and start to put on our outfits. I throw on a black leather skirt with a sounds live feels live shirt that I cropped. Kelsey puts on a similar outfit. We get in the car and head to the concert. We have front row seats on Michael's side. As we wait for the show to start, we go grab some water from the concession stand and go to the merch stand to buy a sweatshirt. As soon as we get back the lights go down, the first notes of Carry On ring through out ears.

Halfway through the show, Luke introduces Amnesia. 

I drove by all the places we used to hang out getting wasted                                                                             I thought about our last kiss                                                                                                                                            How it felt, the way you tasted                                                                                                                                        And even though your friends tell me you're doing fine

As the song goes on, I remember the night Luke and I broke up. The tears streaming down our cheeks, the last kiss we shared, leaving his apartment. I look up at Luke as he sings, I catch him already looking at me. I feel my eyes start to water. I miss what we had. I miss him. I regret nothing more than the night I broke up with him. All the pain the brought both of us, I hear it in his voice when he sings the song. I see it in his eyes when he looks at me,  and I know he can see it in mine. The song ends and Kelsey and I feel a tap on our shoulder.

"Will you come with me backstage."