11/21/12
Undecided.
Unphased.
Displeased.
Torn.
They both tell me I need to make the choice, but what do I pick? He finally loves me.. But so does the other guy. The guy that I'm actually going out with. Guy #1 says I need to choose. Guy #2 (AKA: Boyfriend) doesn't know.
Should I tell him? Should I give in to the nagging voice in my head telling me to give #1 another chance. I've gone out with him before. Like 8 times or so. Every time it ended badly. Every time my best friend tells me to give up on him. But now it's different. He confessed that he missed me. Has he done it before? I can't remember. My best friend said he did. #2 is everything I ever wanted, except one thing... He isn't #1. When I first looked into #1's eyes, a feeling crept up my spine, leaving me numb and breathless. He was 'the one'...
Maybe, maybe not.. I'll never know unless I give him another chance. But what does that mean for #2? What does that mean for trust? If I let #1's soft lips gently sway onto mine, I know I'll be happy. He makes me happy.. Or is it an illusion?
11/22/12
Thanksgiving.
What am I thankful for?
Everything. I have everything I could ever want. My choice is clear. I've chosen #2.
