What did you think was going to happen?You grew up in a messed up home...how could you possibly think you would be any different from what your...
Before he said it I interrupted with tears that silenced him.To my surprise he pulled me close into his arms and told me not to cry brushing his long fingers into my hair,breathing warm air down my face as my tears continued to pour.
I was inhaling his scent differently this time.From all the times I would smell him and my heart would sing with joy and my body would release to this moment where I'm smelling him and just want to puke.Its not him I'm smelling its the number of bottles he had that night.
I push him away and there's nowhere I can run because I'm stuck in his room, I can't run out and risk his parents seeing me so i think fast and jump into his bed, cover myself with the duvet and continue to sob.There is a sudden silence in the room, I dont hear him or smell him anymore.Then suddenly the silence is broken by his movements as he slides into the blankets besides me, starring at the cealing he murmurs "babe".I have no words in my mouth but have a whole tornado in my mind,curled up with my arms pressing my knees together I slowly open my eyes and just as i am about to turn to him i feel a warm hand from my lower back to my navel.He has changed position and now my back side is on his front as he squeezes me tight against him.We have had arguments but none like this,where he is drunk and just blurting out such hurtful things.Although I feel safe and warm in his arms my heart feels trampled on and my emotions are not falling for it. "He went too far!!!!"my concious shouts as she paces up and down.If she can feel it,You can imagine how I'm feeling.I shove his arm off me and and curl up even more as a way of showing him that I am not only angry but I am hurt and he better stay away.
