Michael

Chapter 4

What was left? What was there any more to lose? Michael had already lost the only person that would never leave, himself, so he drowned himself in the booze, pills and the cigarettes. The nicotine fumes that made their way to his chest, burning his lungs, the drowsy and the buzz that he got from the alcohol and drugs, the pain that he caused himself, that was all that made him feel. Love was non existent, he was alone, well at least he felt alone.

He could be surrounded by people and he'd still feel alone.

"Greedy"

Greedy indeed, he wasn't alone, he had a loving family, friends. There were people who go through much worse than him and yet there he was, drowning himself in his sins as he choked on his own lies, burying his facade even deeper on his skin, craving his smile even bigger, wiping his tears even harder.

"Such a fool, such an attention seeker, this is nothing, you'll always feel like this, because this is who you are. You are, Michael, indeed nothing, you are absolutely nothing!"

That's right he was nothing, he was just a molecule, designed to breathe oxygen and self destruct, hurt other human beings and never accept his feelings, hurt them deep to the core with his actions, irritating everyone who surrounded him with his non-sense circus jokes.

"You're a fucking clown."- it had said again

"Shut up."- Michael screamed, wanting to smash his head against the wall and as his skull broke, he could finally see all the thoughts and demons, that lived comfortable there run away.

"What do you mean?"

He had screamed again- "SHUT UP!"

"But you're the one doing the talk, boy, you're the one talking to yourself."

That's right, Michaels demons were himself.

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How's everyone holding up?

Will this story have a particular plot ? Honestly, I'm not sure, life doesn't really have a plot and this is based on someone's life so I guess this is how interesting it gets. I completely understand if you find it boring, there's no drama between people, just arguments between a guy and himself. Just wanted to clarify this one lmfao.