Every day I’ll see you
I feel sad
I bow down and can’t even look at you
Because every time I’ll see you
I will remember everything
Every word you said
Every scar you made that marked
And it gave me the memories
All those agonizing and excruciating memories
I was in love with you
But you broke my heart
I gave you everything
But still you didn’t care
Your heart became a stone
So hard
So cold
So numb
You turned me around
All those tears that flowed down freely
All those drop of blood
It’s agonizing
But fun
Every time I remember the days
I smile
I laugh
I am happy
But still, why am I crying
I laugh as I cry
I’m slowly losing my mind
I thought I can be you
Cold like lifeless
A numb
But I can’t
I’m living in a world of nightmares
And the worst nightmare is you
But every time I sleep I got the chance to change
Chance to win
Though it’s not forever
But it gives me the chance to smile with no pain
I dreamed about you
Suffering
Crying
Bleeding
I have the power to kill you
I have the guts to watch you suffer
I’m enjoying it
I don’t want to wake up anymore
But life is too cruel for me
He wakes me up
Just to live in his sad world
Just to suffer all over again
Just to cry
All those things I love the most
Will only come true
In my dreams
In my fantasy
Because He became my onion
One look
One step close to you
Will always end with tears
Every time I sense you
My eyes are watering
Every time I see you
Tears start to fall all-over again
You are my onion
Maybe in fantasy
Maybe there I can make you cry
But when I open my eyes
All I can say to myself
“Hell… how could I?”
