I kind of disappeared for a while, didn't I? I guess I thought I was "well" enough to not need to keep track of my mental state.
My medication is doing a lot of great things, but it will not take away everything. It just makes it a lot easier to handle. And even though the symptoms are coming back I will never let it get that bad again. I went through so much effort to stay alive. I'm not going to let that go to waste.
I may experience awful intrusive thoughts again, but I will not let it control me. I will not steer clear of babies because the thoughts make me feel like I will hurt them. I don't want to hurt anyone. I don't really want to jump off of stairs and railings, but boy does it feel like it. But I know I don't. I don't want to tear apart loved ones. The thoughts are not my own.
But I will never again let them ruin me.
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『You have mental problems』
Phi Hư Cấu**Trigger warning for a lot of the stuff mentioned in this thing.** I'm not dangerous, just mentally ill.
