In The Universe Of Tears

IN THE UNIVERSE OF TEARS 2

I don't know what dreams exactly are. Sometimes, they seem so real, sometimes foolish, sometimes so disturbing, sometimes so encouraging. They are partners in the space of our lonely sleep. One dream made me feel the loneliness and the state of being helpless. All the things made me realise the things going around.

Women are being treated as Goddesses in our country. We believe they are the only reason for living in this universe. Now, that universe is crying out helplessly. Every girl is crying for help, struggling with insecurity, being killed just for small pleasures and being murdered in the shadow of pride. I was so disturbed with all the things I have seen.

A few days later, I was roaming on our terrace, looking into the deep dark sky. The time is around 10 PM. It's so pleasant and the cool breeze fenced me. I laid on the floor, putting my two arms down my head and one leg on the other. I closed my eyes, gradually my nostrils began to freeze due to frigid air. In a few more seconds, I started to suffocate. I couldn't open my eyes. My nose is blocked, I tried to sneeze out to clear my nostrils. Everything is blank, slowly my eyes ungummed. My head is so heavy, there is severe pain in my nose.

I started to roll on the floor in pain, holding my nose. A gentle sensation of oozing started at my nostrils. As it's dark, I couldn't see what it was exactly. I got up and l started to figure in the light of the street lamp. At first, I thought it was my Mucus, the smell is so abhorrent. But this isn't so sticky. I intensified my eyes, and found "ITS MY BLOOD."

The blood is flowing down over my body, my sight began to smudge, I felt like everything around me was vanishing. A while later, I fell into the flowing water from my terrace. I never knew any river nearby. I tried to swim but something held me. I'm unable to move. I'm drowning, getting very hard to breathe. Suddenly, a force pushed me to the bank. I was just thrown out... I don't know what caused me pain, my knees were shivering, I can't take a stand. I began to roll out of pain. I started to cry. There is no one to help.

"CHARAN," I heard Kavya's voice.

I stood up and looked around. I heard her voice again, my mind ran crazy. Even though my eyes were open I could see nothing.

"Kavya, where are you? What's this place?" I shouted.

"Charan it's raining," she shouted. I didn't understand what she was saying. I felt someone jerking my body. I looked around, something started to reconstruct in front of my face. Slowly I opened my eyes.

It's Kavya just before, bent over, with an umbrella in her hand.

"How strange, How did you sleep in this rain?" Come let's go down." She held my shoulder to lift me up.

"Where Am I Kavya?" I asked her.

"On our terrace," she said.

I stood, looked all around, it was raining heavily. Did I dream? For God sake what does this dream mean? I checked my nose for any traces of blood, my legs and joints. Everything is normal.

Kavya observed my inconsistent behaviour."Charan? Are you fine, What are you searching for?" She asked.

"Nothing Kavya, come let's go down," by saying I took stairs to get down. I was completely wet. Kavya brought me a towel. I started to rub my hair. I took off my shirt. Wrapped a towel around my waist and walked into my room. The time is post fifteen to twelve. I put on clothes for the night.

I heard a knock on my door. It's Kavya, calling me for dinner. I walked to the dining table. My brother, Varun, is already at supper. Kavya sat next to him and began to serve.

"Why are you late?" Varun asked Kavya. She kept silent.

"It's not good for your health Kavya, be more conscious about it," he added. She nodded her head as a sign of accepting. Later, for a few seconds, silence occupied between us. My mind was struck with the dream. To be said, I can't remember the whole dream but I can get the image of mine rolling in pain.