The Diary of a Volturi

He came to claim

Tomorrow is that day. The day, where I will be moving into a castle full of vampires to live with King Caius.
Apparently, I am his mate. One could compare that to the human 'soulmate', but since vampires are rumoured to not be in possession of a soul anymore, I think the term 'mate' is quite fitting.
According to Caius, finding your mate is quite a unique occasion. It does not happen to every vampire and if it does, it happens only once.
The bond between two mates is said to be quite strong and I can't deny that I suffer more from his absence than I'd like to admit.
It doesn't matter that, one week ago to the day, my best friend was almost killed right in front of me and her own mate for her part in a rebellion. It doesn't matter that her life was only spared because I agreed to go with Caius, one of the three kings.
I can't put the way I feel about him into words. The word I am looking for to describe my feelings does not exist. Not in this world.
Of course, there is hate and disgust. Mate or not, he had sent out the order that almost got Amandine killed. And not only was he the one giving that order - he would have had Demetri do so. Her own mate. He is cold and cruel.
But none of this matters, because ever since our eyes met for the first time, I feel... whole.
All my life I have been searching for the meaning of my existence. I have never - not once - seen a point in my being alive. I am smart, but never did that do me any good since the cards were never in my favor.
I am nothing but an average human being now.
I have never felt like I belonged anywhere. Like I belonged with someone. I was lied to, betrayed and cheated on.
My only friend is Amandine. Nobody else feels the need to put up with me, let alone to care one little bit about me.
I always felt like there was a huge hole punched through me, but when I met Caius - when he claimed me - that hole was gone and it felt like gravitation pulled me right in his direction, which was also one of the reasons why I gave up so easily and surrendered.
Amandine didn't understand it at the time and neither did I, but she had realized sooner what was happening than I did. Of course, she had experienced it all with Demetri. I believe that it was a little different for her, since they're both vampires. She knew right away. Gravitation pulled them both closer together before they even laid eyes on one another.
When I was brought to King Caius' chambers by Demetri, he told me he will be eternally grateful for my coorporation. If it wasn't for my decision, Amandine would have died for her part in a rebellion - and for the fact, that she had told a human, me, about the existence of their kind.
I never felt like I had sacrificed anything. Not yet, anyways. It was a bit of a discussion when I asked my mate that he would let me leave for a week, to go back home and prepare my move to the castle, which is located in Volterra, Italy. At first he wasn't going to agree.  He thought I was going to betray him. Run away or end my own life, for example. I had never intended to do so. I knew that this would not only mean the end of my own life, but also Amandines. He had spared her once, and once was already too much when it came to Caius Volturi. He was known to set up executions on a daily basis. He was perpetually angry, always in the mood to kill.
He still doesn't trust me, but at least he let me leave. I assured him I wouldn't harm myself. I assured him I wouldn't run. He is aware of the fact that I couldn't run, even if I wanted to. Demetri would know my location in a heartbeat, thanks to his special ability. I also am aware of that. Amandine has told me all about it. Once again she broke the rules, but as long as I return safely to the castle tomorrow she will be forgiven.
Caius had sent them to pick me up - by car. Traveling on the back of a vampire wasn't the most comfortable way for a human.
Even he, a vampire of three thousand years, knew that.
It was actually Aro's idea to send Amandine and Demetri. Aro is another one of the Kings and also acts as the spokesperson most times. Only when Caius found me, he raised his voice since it was such a pressing matter.
Caius didn't care about who to send to pick me up. He just wanted me to get back in one piece - and alive. Aro found that I would feel more comfortable with Amandine around. Safer. Of course, Caius didn't miss his chance to point out that Amandine might use her leaving the castle as a chance to escape and when I left for my plane back to Germany, the subject still wasn't settled. It was only yesterday that I got a message from Amandine saying that she and Demetri will be picking me up later tonight. Or should I say 'late at night'?
Naturally, I had to check in with Caius every night before I went to sleep. His voice was always full of anger and hatred, like someone had just insulted his mother. I tried to change his mood a bit. Shift it in a more positive way. I told him about my day, counted down the days for him until I returned to Volterra. But nothing worked. Was that how my life would be from now on? Would he always speak to me like that?
Demetri and Amandine will be here soon. I should get ready.