After the end four and christinas story

Part five

"So, you ready for bed yet" Christina asked after she had came back from the toilet, or as she had so generally explained taking a piss, "or could you last another hour with the joys of me" the grin she so loved inching higher up her face towards the end.

I had just managed to go half an hour with out thinking about her that way, I mean how could I think of a girl who tells me to everything stupid I do ( yes I realise where she grew up so its normal) or a girl who hated me when we met. It's just not logical. Then she went and smiled again and I felt it, not what I felt with tris, different not better but deformity not worse. Even just saying that feels like falling from a height of a thousand feet, Tris is who I love, who I will always love, this feeling I'm having now is just me ,missing her. Right?

After u realised just how weird it was that rather than answering her I was just staring off, most likely with a look of constipation crossing my face I snapped out of my thought and replied" I'm shattered really, I'll just go to bed."

"Oh right okay" she replied less than a little quite. I could instantly tell I'd upset her. She lent over and grabbed her sleeping bag she had been sat curled up in and headed to the tent, that's when I realised there was one tent, we were going to share. Yesterday I wouldn't have even looked twice, I would have walked there and took up most of the room so Christina had to squish in and get pissed at me, but today it felt like the worst plan.
"You coming then?" She yelled back to me while crawling into the tent. I slowly started to head towards her, heart pounding sweat poring,sure tonight was going to go wrong.