I don't know what to do, I don't. I fell in love with the wrong person and there's nothing I can do about it.. I can only try to protect him as long as I can. I can't let anything bad happening to him, and right know that's the one thing on my mind. Protect him at all costs.
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"Hello,
My name's Skyler Jackson and I'm a French 18-year-old girl. My parents ran away from France to England to excape the war and then the had me here. We we're poor. My dad drowned himself in work to put food on the table, my mom cleaned houses to try to keep ours and I tried to have the best results in the hole school so that I could go to a good college and have a well paid job to sustain my parents, but life wasn't on my favor.
After some time, I went home and it was empty. I called for my mom but nobody was home. When I went outside to look for them, a man showed up and told me he was my uncle Nick and that my parents couldn't afford having me living with them right now so I was going to live with him. I started to pack with a feeling of treason from my parents and went living with my uncle.
During the first years it all went alright. My room at my uncle's was bigger than my old one. I had more toys than I could count. My uncle was better than my parents. At least he could put food everyday on the table and he loved me. But one day without a sign, everything changed.
I was about 14 when I had my first real boyfriend, Lucas Bennet, and one day I decided to introduce him to my uncle. After school me and Lucas had a work from school to do so, I took him to my uncle's house.
Lucas waited outside while I went to see if Nick was home, but he wasn't, so I invited him in. We worked on the the school project for about 2 hours but then, we decided to stop. We were talking and we kissed, like normal boyfriends, but right in that moment, my uncle gets home and stopped staring at us. 'Skyler?!?' I remember the surprise on is voice. Lucas tried to introduce himself but my uncle kicked him out of the house.
'Why Skyler?' I could hear sadness on his voice. 'Why would you try to make me jealous? Bringing a boy here? You don't need to do this to get my attention... You know I already love you so much.' I wasn't understanding what he was saying. He was now smirking. Why his he laughing about? He started to walk towards me.
'I know you love me, you're my uncle and you took me in when not even my own parents wanted me... But he's the person I love, that I can call boyfriend.. I just wanted you to meet him.'. I smile at him but he doesn't smile at all. He has an angry look on his face.
'You love him?! You don't love him! You love me! Just like I love you!' he was scaring me so I step back but he continued to walk into my direction. He grabbed my arms tightly hurting me. 'YOU LOVE ME YOU UNDERSTAND?!'. He screamed and I tried to run from him but he wouldn't let me go. Instead, he pushed me back making me fall on the ground. I hit with my head on the floor, I can't move. I try to say his name, but the only thing that works now on my body are my eyes and my ears. 'You making me do this. I didn't wanted to but you make me.' I saw him stepping closer to me while his hands took his belt off dropping it on the floor.
I was scared. He was scaring me and he wouldn't stop undressing himself. His pants were on the floor right next to his belt. 'I gave you all... A home, food, love, toys, my time, a family. And this is the way you pay me?!' I was starting having the control of my body and I try to get up but my uncle's gets on top of me stopping me. I could feel something hard against me leg. He started to undress me to and I try to stop him but he grabs my hands and I scream but he shuts me up with a kiss that I try to get away from but the next thing I know, I feel a terrible pain. Something big and hard gets in and out. We I get was it is I start crying so hard that I can't breath. Something warm and liquid wets my legs. That's when all of my body shuts down. I can feel nothing but the agonizing pain.
That's when I felt something grabbing my bra but I didn't care anymore. I can do nothing about it. After some seconds after that, I feel on last movement inside of me... This went in more than the others and I feel a terrible pain closing my eyes. 'Almost Sky, almost..' Nick whispers on my ear pulling my t-shirt and my bra up all at once kissing my nipple giving me a nasty sensation all over my body, and suddenly, something warmed me inside. It was something liquid. Nick smiles dropping his body on my. I could feel his sweaty body against mine. He kisses me one last time and gest out of me slowly.
I let myself stay laid down on the ground pulling my pants up and my bra down. 'that's all for today. You better not tell this to anyone or next time, it will be worst. And I love you so don't do anything okay?' he said and kissed me. Then, he left home.
So this was the first time it happened. And he's right, now I see it. I'm 18 and I see that he did it because he loves me. And I love him."
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'Sky I brought you something, a toy.' My uncle's home. I close my diary and hide it under the mattress. I get up of the basement and walked to my uncle. He has a box so big on his side. The box's laid down on the floor and Nick's standing on it's side. The box is bigger than my uncle.
'What is it?! ' I smile at him.' open it' he smiled and I open one side of the box. My smile desapiers em I see what's inside of the box moving. 'omg'.
