she/her

an open letter for the girl who is not ready yet for commitment

You aren't the typical girl who sells herself on dating apps just for her pleasure to talk to possible someones. You always choose not to be serious with someone who wants to court you. When one tries to talk, you always end up not taking it as progress. You deny being in love, rather you're being analytical about it. Your standards are above the roof and you seem not to tie it lower, just because someone is available.

There are urges of risking into those almosts sometimes, but you often feel like it is not yet the right path to take. It's okay that you feel the excitement of infatuation sometimes because that's completely normal, and it's okay that you had let go of that feeling every once in a while. You're really afraid of growing old alone because of the decisions you're making today, but note that those feelings are valid, and it would all make sense later on.

It's okay to prioritize things you think are more worth it. It's okay to wait until everyone's ready. It's okay to not commit at the early stages of life just because others believe that love through ages varies. You don't have to feel pressured about it. You don't have to be with someone to make you happy. It's completely fine if you have decided to know and better yourself first. Life is not a race, love at your own pace and succeed at your own pace, doesn't matter.

By the moment when everything is right, you'll know why you rejected some paths life had given you, and you would be thankful that it went that way. By the moment when everything is right, you'll not underestimate your worth of not choosing to love too soon. By the moment when everything is right, you'll know you're ready.