Tears on you

The Dark Fog Lifts

Y/N's point of view

Everything is heavy and aching: limbs, head, eyelids, nothing will move. My eyes and mouth are sealed shut, unwilling to open, leaving me blind, mute and aching. As I surface from the fog, consciousness hovers, a seductive siren just out of reach. Sounds become voices.

"I'm not leaving her"

Zak! He's here... I will myself to wake - his voice sounds strained, an agonized whisper.

Aaron: "Zak, you should sleep."

Zak: "No, Aaron. I want to be here for when she wakes up"

Aaron: "I'll sit with her, dude you need to go home and rest up"

Zak: "how can I go home and rest up bro when all I do is worry about Y/N, I don't want to lose her"

Aaron: "Zak, Y/N's not going anywhere she's strong and quite frankly stubborn. Y/N won't leave you or this world without a fight".

I'm not going anywhere guys, I will  make it out of this.... I promise.

Zak: "this is all my fault, if I didn't let Y/N leave she wouldn't have gotten into a accident"

Aaron: "don't be so hard on yourself Zak both of you didn't know that this was gonna happen. Accidents happen to anyone. Come on dude go home for a little rest, I'll stay with Y/N"

I can hear Zak was about to say something when the fog closes in again and everything went black.

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The fog lifts ever so slightly and I can feel Zak's soft stubble softly scraping on the back of my hand as he gently squeezes my hand.

Zak: "baby, please come back to me. I'm sorry for all the times I've hurt you. I don't want to lose you Y/N, no matter what happens I'm always going to be here for you and support you through all of this. Me and the guys will help you in any way we can to get you better and back to your normal self. Please just come back to me. Just wake up, open your eyes... Anything. I miss you. I love you... "

I try and I try. I want to see Zak, but my body disobeys me and I fall asleep once more.

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I open my eyes and saw I'm in a clean, sterile environment of a hospital room. The room was dark except for a sidelight, and the room was quiet. My head, left arm and left leg ache like hell, when I looked down I noticed my arm and leg was in casts.

I tested the rest of my limbs and my right arm smarts, I noticed the IV attached to it on the inside of my elbow. I shut my eyes quickly and turned my head slightly. I'm pleased that it responds to my will.

I opened my eyes again and saw Zak is asleep sitting beside me leaning on my bed with his head on his folded arms. I reach out, grateful once more that my body responds, and run my fingers through his soft hair.

He startles awake, raising his head so suddenly that my hand falls weakly back onto the bed.

I went to speak but found no sound came out of my mouth.

Zak: "oh, Y/N"

Zak's voice is choked and yet he sounded relieved. He grasps my hand, squeezing it tightly and held it against his cheek.

I looked at Zak and can see he looks dreadful.. haunted, even as if he hasn't slept for days. His hair is a mess and can see he hasn't shaved as I see the faint stubble of hair appearing on his cheek.

Zak: "how are you feeling baby?"

Again I tried to respond but nothing would come out, I was silent. I started to panic. Why can't I physically speak?.

Zak saw I was panicking and he comforted me the best he could.

Zak: "Hey... Hey it's OK baby, everything's going to be OK"

I couldn't say anything, all I could do was shake my head no and can feel tears building up in my eyes. I felt angry, and frustrated. I want to speak, say something... Anything.

Zak came closer to me and wrapped his arms around me tight.

Zak: "shh it's OK baby, it's OK. We'll get through this"

If I couldn't say anything out loud I can sure speak with my mouth. I just hope Zak and the guys can lip read. So I started talking and mouthing out what I want to say.

I want to go home.

Thankfully Zak can read me and he responded.

Zak: "I know you do baby and you will be coming home soon. We just need to get you sorted first OK?"

I just nodded in response, as Zak was holding me in his arms the doctor came into the room.

Doctor: "its so good to see you awake Y/N, how do you feel?"

I just looked at Zak and he started talking to the doctor.

Zak: "she can't speak, she can talk but there's just no sound coming out of her mouth"

Doctor: "we thought something like this would happen... OK Y/N I need to check your vitals and then later on today or in a few days we'll have to run some tests, will that be OK?"

Again I just nodded. I need to find a way of communicating, this way if talking is going to use alot of energy and drain me. After the doctor checked my vitals he left me and Zak alone again. I have to admit... I'm scared what happens if I'll never be able to talk again. This is like a fricken nightmare.

Then a idea clicked I can communicate by texting, but where's my phone.

Zak: "what you looking for baby?"

I signalled and motioned out where's my phone.

Zak: "you're phone got damaged in the accident baby, thankfully the doctors managed to get some information about you from your phone before it died. What do you want the phone for baby?"

Then I don't know how but I mouthed out and even throw in some sign language type movements

I can talk through the phone by text messages.

Zak looked at me and smiled

Zak: "you definitely haven't lost your memory or your amazing thinking baby, that's a great idea. Here use my phone and type me a message and I'll read it"

Zak handed me his phone and I started texting him. Sure enough it felt like we was having our usual conversations. After a little while I was starting to get emotional.

Zak: "what's wrong baby?"

So I typed this message.

Y/N: "I'm scared Zak, what'll happen if I can never speak again. Me being this way hurts xxxx"

I passed Zak his phone and he looked at the message. I can even see he started getting tears in his eyes.

Zak: "I don't know baby, we'll find a way to make you better OK. I promise you I'll find a way"

I started to cry more so Zak wrapped his arms around me and held me in his embrace. During this tender moment my head started to hurt and I some how let out a little moan.

Zak: "what's wrong baby?"

I held my head to show I had pain in my head.

Zak: "it's OK baby, just lie down and get some rest. The pain will soon go away"

As my leg and arm hurt Zak helped me to lay down and got me comfortable. As I laid down I grabbed Zak's phone and typed

Y/N: "please don't leave me, stay here with me xxxx"

Zak looked at the message and smiled a little bit.

Zak: "I promise I won't leave you Y/N, I'm not going anywhere. Of course I'll stay here with you"

I smiled a little before Zak leaned closer to me and kissed me. I soon got more comfortable in Zak's arms and sure enough I fell asleep.