- Dear Diary ( 4/21/20)
I don't know how to feel honestly I'm so lost for words so broken so sad, so tired, so useless.. I'm always there for everybody but, nobody is here for me ! Why am I such the forgiving and happy for you friend, it's like I want you to succeed but do you want me to succeed as well ? Sometimes I just need someone to tell me that there proud of me and to give me a hug but I won't ask . I refuse to ask. Yes yes nobody will know what you actually need if you don't ask or say something about it but, if I'm able to notice your mood change and you acting different shouldn't you notice the same in me ? I was so happy once you know when I had my boyfriend he made me happy we were good but that wasn't enough, I wasn't enough and he left and it broke me but I forgave him and forgave him and I still got broken I was just being used for when he was bored. Sad case I moved on from that now. I'm still not happy but I'm getting there I still wish someone sees me for me even on my off days if I call them " my friend " but , many can't seem to see it ! Thanks diary for listening I'll check in another time !
Xoxo ~ me
