Have you ever juse woke up one day and realised, your life isn't what you want. You just find that you have wasted almost 18 years doing everything by the book. I mean, its not like I haven't done everything by the book. I just haven't done everything I think people should experience while growing up. I also wish I would have tried more in school, with academics anyway. I have too many exracurriclars to count. I wish I could be that girl, you know the really pretty one that has good grades but also has tons of friends to go out and get drunk with on the weekends. I don't understand how they can do it, and their parents dont event push them that hard. My mom is such a stickler when it comes to anything, anything at all. I can barely talk to a boy without her saying hes ugly, or why are you talking to him. She expects me to be someone I dont think I can be. She once grounded my sister for not wearing make-up to school. I had a hard time telling my mother I wanted to go to a community college for a year to take a break. I told her " I just want a breather before i head off to business school". The truth, I dont think I could have gotten in to my university with my grades.
By this time you are probably wondering who I am, or why I am telling you this. My name is Raelynn Blakley. Im a senior in highschool, and I have never dated a guy in my school. I have had relationships, just with older guys. My parents believe I have never had a boyfriend and I've never been kissed. Which isn't true, I lost my virginity at the age of 15. I live in my own apartment, my parents live a couple hours away from my school and job, so they let me stay to finish highschool. I am a cheerleader among other clubs and organizations. Basically everyone, but my closest friends, my sister, and the people I have been with, think I am a goody two shoes. What they don't know won't kill them right?
