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Okay so its 6am and i'm currently in the car on my way to campus, I would have driven myself but I could fall asleep any minute now. Camilas still haven't texted me or even called me, she's actually starting to irritate me and it takes lot to do that. My parents are freaking out over me leaving and "growing up". It's kinda pathetic to be honest but they're my parents so I should'nt be complaining. I'm not that nervous and it's mostly because I make friends with people pretty easily so that should'nt be a problem but there's one thing that worries me. Smoking. I used to smoke before but it was just to take the edge off things even I hate myself for doing it but it helped me a lot.. College is pretty stressful so I'm probably gonna start smoking again which camila won't like but whatever it's not like she can say anything about it..

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Right okay so I did fall asleep in the car but i'm in my dorm room right now and let me tell you its pretty fancy. I'm sharing this room with a girl called Adriana and wow she's pretty, she has greenish eyes and brown hair. She's the same age as me but a few inches taller which is perfectly fine. She's just like me but hotter and straight, well I think she is. So anyways the school is called University of Miami and yes its fucking huge but it I already know where my classes are thanks to Adriana. It's a pretty fancy school and normally I don't like rich kids stuff but it's not that bad except that Camila lives right next door to me and I hate it. I didn't know that someone could hurt you this much , but now I do. I'm so aggravated and hurt that I want to cry but I don't want Adriana to think that im a freak or something. I wish I had something that could take the edge off atleast, something that would calm me down just for a few seconds. I mean I was offered pot when I came here earlier this morning and now that I think about it.. It dosen't sound that bad. Maybe I'll go get it later I don't know, i kinda promised camz that I wouldn't smoke but it's not like she can do anything about it right?

Anyways its 3pm and there's no more classes for today but yeah I met my headmaster earlier and let me tell you shes really really hot, i think her name was Elisabeth. She seemed quite nice actually but kinda boring in a way, i think it was because of her accent. The way she spoke made it sound like she was british or something inbetween those lines. DONT get me wrong british accents are hot its just that hers was so boring it could've put me to sleep. You know i wish i had more to write about today, but its been such a long day and im really tired.

It has been such a nerve wracking day i just feel like sleeping for days maybe even years, mostly because of camz but what can you do. I mean you cant choose who you fall for, i don't even know if this is the case with her. But all i know is that every second of the day i think of her, the way her hair falls on her back, how her heads falls back everytime she laughs. The cute lil pout she makes when she wants my attention or how  she sticks her tounge out when she tries to focus.. I miss her I really do but is it love? I don't know, my parents always tell me that im too young to know what love is and maybe they're right. She walked past me 3 times today but havent said a thing to me, she didn't even look at me which kinda hurt but its okay. If this is what makes her happy then ill leave her be because her happiness comes before mine. No matter what happens she will always be my camz, she'll always have a part of my heart. I don't care if she dosen't feel the same way i feel about me. All i care about is her happiness and hopefully she will find her prince charming one day, who will treat her like the princess she is. I wish i could be her prince charming but unfortunately I can't.  

"Camz if you by any chance find this book and read this. I wish you all the best and happiness that life can give you. I hope you find your prince charming, who will ride in on a white horse saving you from the monsters and dragons. I love you dearly yours truly lauren."

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im sorry for the short chapter i just wanted to publish it as quickly as possible because it has been so long. Please comment what you guys think about the story.