Damaged Goods

chapter 6.

"Sassy you know he did that as a favour, he doesn't want the money back, it wasn't a loan it was a permanent fix". Most of the school day has consisted of Tilly and myself arguing about my plans for the afternoon. It's taken me half a week of searching the house, emptying my bank account and going through Leo's things when he's not home to finally gather up the $300 that I owe Jax.

"I know he doesnt want is Til but I don't do favours, I told him I would pay him back so that is exactly what i'm going to do, now you can come with me or you can stay here finish this shitty week off at school with our shitty last lesson instead of spending the afternoon with your best friend." At the conclusion of my sentence I get an over exaggerated eye roll, one that surely holds a lot more attitude then what im getting.

"Saskia no need to lie, that cute outfit you're wearing today proves that you are way more excited to see my brother this afternoon then to spend it with me." With that she walks off with a little bounce in her step towards her car, which I'm assuming Jax decided was allowed back into the crazy woman's hands. Tillys comment about my outfit catches me off guard,

I mean it's not something I usually wear. I wanted to make a subtle effort. The oversized red and cream t-shirt was originally paired with my everyday jeans, it wasn't until the very last minute rushing out the door that I changed into the cute baggy overalls that Tilly made me buy on our last shopping trip.

Trying to calm my nerves as I walk to Tillys car I think about Jax and his personality, I can't pinpoint why I'm so attracted to him. Is it manly nature, his brooding attitude or his dominant words that make we want to please his every word.

I don't even care at this point, if he said one word to me that would be enough.

"You know he's not going to accept it right? Like he earns triple that like every 5 minutes of his life, plus at this point Sas I think he would do anything for you."

I shut the car door a little harder than expected, annoyed that I know she's right.

"Tilly please this is something I just need to do, my brother is the one the money was for not me. He is not Jax's responsibility nor am I. I know it's not really about the money and he probably doesn't even notice such a small penny spent but it's not just to accept money like a charity case." I finish with a small huff completely over this day already, over this week and everything that has come in it.

Tilly reaches out and grabs my hand giving it a small squeeze and gracing me with a small smile, "I know Sas and that's why we both care so much about you.... Especially Jax."

The serious moment turns into a car filled with laughter as Tilly drives out of the school gates and towards my every consumed thought since last seeing him, Jax.

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"Miss Jacobs, nice to see you again darling how can i help", the little old lady at the reception desk asks us as we approach.

"Hi Tam Tam we are just her to see the all almighty Mr grumps" she says with a little eye roll and a giggle from the receptionist. "Is he in his office?"

"He just went out for a business meeting, he should be back in the next 10 or so, just go on up". Tilly grabs my hand and pulls me towards a sheer glass elevator then pressing the number 10.

As we raise higher and higher and pass level after level I realise the situation i've gotten myself into, I'm in an elevator with my rich best friend on our way to give her rich brother who I also happen to be obsessed with money that he spent on my broken and unimportant family, the juxtaposition between our different situations makes me giggle to myself.

With a high pitched ding we make our way out of the elevator towards what I assume to be Jax's office, Tilly waving at everyone we cross on the way.

She walks around like she owns the place,

Well I guess she technically does.

"Should we just leave the money like on his desk or something I don't want him to get mad at us for interrupting his work".

"Oh hunny the last person he would get mad at is you, which i'm glad at as the first person he would get mad at is me", Tilly picks up some lollies out of a small decorative bowl on the desk and plonks herself down onto Jax's office chair.

"Sassy relax, everything is gonna be fine, he will be here in a second you can give him the money and then we can skip school for the rest of the day and chill at home".

Just as I'm about to reply, the door behind my swings open and i can immediately sense the pure power radiating off of the intruder.

"Sweetheart what are you doing here, Tilly get your feet off my desk and get out of here", My best friend then flips him off before taking a large handful of lollies whilst looking at him in the eyes and walking out patting me on the head as she walks past me.

"Have fun, i'll be waiting in the car Sas, Love you both."

Her exit is defined with a slam of the door as Jax makes his way over to his chair and sits down. "You can sit down baby, no need to be nervous tell me what's up."

The nickname immediately sets a blush to my cheeks, how can he be so comfortable and open with me when we barely know each other, it confuses yet excites me.

Fiddling with my fingers in my lap I glace up and begin to explain.

"Well I know its kind of stupid because you have so much money," I pause while looking around the overly expensive room.

"But um i don't expect anything from you or Tilly and that's why I want to give you this", I say pulling the envelope out of my overalls. "It's the money you paid to get Leo out of jail, I just want to say thankyou and you won't ever have to do that again, I'm looking for a job at the moment so I will also be able to pay you back for the clothes you bought me soon."

My nerves increase as he doesn't reply for a second, pushing the rolly chair back from his desk he pats his knee something that confused me greatly.

"Saskia, baby come here please", scared I angered him I scramble from my seat towards his lap where he grabs my hips and places me sideways on his muscular thighs. "That money that I spent on your brother was because I wanted to, you did not ask me to do it. The money I spent on these clothes", he says whilst pinching at my overall straps, "I bought because i wanted to, you are someone that I want to spend my money on, I want to get to know you, spoil you, treasure you so one day when I say you will agree to being mine".

I look up at Jax with wide eyes not expecting that response, suspecting he finished I open my mouth to disagree back but before I can he brings his hand up to lock my chin in with his thumb and finger.

"This is non-negotiable sweetheart. Whether you agree or not I will do all those things for you so let me spend my money on things that keep you safe and keep you happy."

My only response is a small nod still not satisfied with not paying him back. "Is there any way I can make it up to you, please." I try one last time hoping to God that he will come up with some compromise for me to think him by.

"I tell you what baby, i'm going to call Tilly tell her to go back to school alone, your going to say here with me help me sort some files and keep me company then we are going to go back to my house where you will be staying the night, then I will be happy and we can call it even, how does that sound to you?"

Captivated by him taking charge I give him a simple nod before replying with a small sound of agreement, not trusting my voice to get the words out.

"Ok good now let's get this finished up so I can take you home and cook you a proper meal and show you that one day you really will be mine". 

He didn't need to know that before we left I slipped the envelope into his top draw.