the only words you have for me - chris motionless fan fic

chapter 6- one man can change the world.

i woke up in the moring feeling better than i did last night. i got over chris a bit easier this moring and managed not to fall.  i went and got dressed into riped up faded skinnies and a cute top that i liked to wear just cause it made my boobies look bigger. i brushed my teeth and my hair and sraightened it for the day ahead. i think i looked nice, i walked out and all the guys turned and looked and some random guy from another band said " if you werent called for i would have you" what did he mean called for and me be his, im not some prize you can just win and trade. ugh. chris got up a bit later and was still finishing his makeup when all the other guys left. i hadn't really talked to him about last night but i didnt know if i was supposed to or not. i went to get my phone which i left over near the bathroom only to be grabbed by the person in there. they grabbed my waist and pulled me in closing the door behind them. this all happened so fast one second i was getting my phone the next i was grabbed by the man known as chris into the bathroom. he pushed me up against the wall so our bodies were touching his hand on my waist the other on my neck. "chr-" i was cut off by him putting his fingers over my mouth his eyes lingering on my lips then wandering back to my eyes. out of no where he pushed himself into me so i was compleletly stuck between him and the wall. he pushed his face into mine making our lips touch and then a second later him starting to kiss me roughtly while i was just standing there in shock. "sorry i dont know what came over me.." he said before quickly walking out into into the bus' main area and then out to the band. im not often speecchless but what he hell just happened? oh my gosh.... i walked out of the bus completely ignoring everyone i was still in shock.

it was my turn to go on stage and motionless in white guys were watching again. i ran out and started jumping around the stage "whats up my little m****r f******g pretties" i yelled into the mike. they screamed and yelled. this is what i love doing preforming."so i can see haters in this crowd" some of them started yelling and saying shit. "you know what i have to say to them? p*ss off and go and suck your dadies d*ck." i screamed into the mike. the crowd errupted with laughtr and yelling out to  me the i love you's and things. "i lke to call this one the kill. (30 seconds to mars song: the kill (bury me)

What if I wanted to break

Laugh it all off in your face

What would you do? (Oh, oh)

What if I fell to the floor

Couldn't take all this anymore

What would you do, do, do?

Come break me down

Bury me, bury me

I am finished with you

What if I wanted to fight

Beg for the rest of my life

What would you do?

You say you wanted more

What are you waiting for?

I'm not running from you (from you)

Come break me down

Bury me, bury me

I am finished with you

Look in my eyes

You're killing me, killing me

All I wanted was you

I tried to be someone else

But nothing seemed to change

I know now, this is who I really am inside.

Finally found myself

Fighting for a chance.

I know now, this is who I really was

Come break me down

Bury me, bury me

I am finished with you, you, you.

Look in my eyes

You're killing me, killing me

All I wanted was you

Come break me down (bury me, bury me)

Break me down (bury me, bury me)

Break me down (bury me, bury me)

(You say you wanted more)

What if I wanted to break...?

(What are you waiting for?)

Bury me, bury me

(I'm not running from you)

What if I

What if I

What if I

What if I

Bury me, bury me   i played 7 more songs and then had a little speech and walked off leaving the stage for motionless in white to preforn. they were amazing maybe even better than yesterday. they walked off and i gave them hugs like yesterday. they really were amazing preformers even though chris was acting weird.