About Us [NH]

One-Ashley

Ash

7:30 AM, 25th of June 2020

It's always the same goddamn time that I wake up at, a heavenly hour that gives you the impression that I have a put together life, work, sports, friendships. But hell no, I've got absolutely nothing of the sort. 

I wake up to do the same exact shit everyday, I shower, have breakfast, watch Netflix all day while probably eating something incredibly unhealthy, then I go out for drinks and cigs. My life has become no more than a shitty routine that only psychopaths go through if they're my age.

Hi, I'm Ashley Davies. I'm 26 years old, and the thing I do the most is smoke. I'm from Birmingham, but I moved to London for work when I turned 21, in 2015. To be honest, I come from a really wealthy family, both my parents passed away, my mum when I was 9, and then my dad when I was 16, leaving me behind a huge amount of money, but I still pursued my dream of becoming an architect, as they both also wanted. Losing them both was really bad. I was really attached to both of them, especially my father after mum passed. We shared so many hobbies and traits together, many people told me I was a little female version of him, my father loved to joke and be sarcastic, he was kind-hearted, loving, and successful, he built himself from dust to glory. We have a huge family business, which is now managed by my step siblings, I love them, but we're not that close anymore.

I used to have a job too, I graduated from Cambridge University, Faculty of Architecture. I worked for an amazing and incredibly successful company, I had it all, the perfect job, the perfect boyfriend -who also happened to be my manager-, and a busy social life. Hell, I even had a stunning body, so beautiful that I even considered modelling. 

But that all changed one stupid night, 14th of December 2017, yes, 3 years ago. I went into my boyfriend, Caleb's, office without knocking, eager to tell him about a new deal that the company had just signed, when I saw him and Susan, the secretary, making out. I silently stared at them with tears falling down my face as they realised I was standing at the door, and then I left without a word.

14th of December 2017

Caleb chased after me, "Babe, wait! It's not what you think, I swear!" 

"Save it, Caleb. I saw you kissing her back. Please just  leave me alone, and consider me resigned." I said quietly. 

Caleb looked me in the eyes, desperately, and got closer as he held my face and tried to kiss me, I pulled back, "Please, just let me go, I can't", and with that, I left the man I loved so much, and my job that I was so good at, and went back to my flat.

As I went into the shower, it all hit me, I've lost it all. Where could I have possibly gone wrong? Why wasn't I enough for him? How long has this been going on?

What if he was honest? What if he meant his apology? What if it was my mistake, maybe I didn't give him enough attention? But I did. I gave him everything, my time, my attention, my love, everything. Why wasn't all of it enough for him?

I cried, I cried a lot that night. It felt as if my life has been shattered, and as if my soul has been torn. I wished I would've known where I went wrong.

I fell asleep listening to music that night.

"It's inevitable everything that's good comes to an end
It's impossible to know if after this we can still be friends, yeah
I know you're saying you don't wanna hurt me, well maybe you should show a little mercy
The way you look I know you didn't come to apologise"

A/N:

Hello! R here. I know this chapter is quite short, the next one will probably be as short too, but it's just the beginning :) Let me know what you guys think in the comments!

Have a good day loves!