A Slayer At The Vendetta (Town of Laodicea Series #1 COMPLETED)

FORTY EIGHT: THE EMERGENCE OF WARFARE

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Do you know the feeling of being crashed constantly? The feeling of fixing a broken porcelain glass and someone will broke it again. When you're building a towers of domino and it'll be banished down by a certain thing. It's frustrating and devastating, every pain and burden are just hard to take. 

I'm still grieving for my parents, Aunt Rica and Uncle Paul we're already gone, Zed was tortured, and his life is at risk. Trina betrayed me, and the only person i'd could hold onto right now is Lyric. I should be thankful that I still have a person on my side. Yet, I am so exhausted, I can't take to live anymore. If it's not for the people I love, I'm already dead now. There's no point of living without the people you love. I am alive yet i am dead inside.

Bumalik na ako sa dati kong silid dito sa mansyon, bukas na rin ang mga bintana. I don't really have any plan on taking my own life that time, I was just out of mind. Hindi ko rin inaasahan na kaya kong magtangkang magpakamatay. Ngayon, gusto ko lang muna huminga sa lahat ng nangyayari. Masyadong masakit ang kinakaharap kong mga pagsubok. Mostly, I would just drink a tequila over it, but at this time, everything became worst, that I couldn't think of any distraction. 

Sometimes, it's better to fall asleep and disappear. Mas gugustuhin ko pa nga 'yon, kaso may mga tao akong pinangakuan. Na gustuhin ko mang maglaho ay hindi ko magawa. 

Hindi ako lumalabas ng kwarto, paminsan-minsan akong nakikinig ng musika habang nagbabasa ng libro. Ngunit pag-tulog talaga ang madalas kong gawin, naiibsan kasi nito ang sakit na nararamdaman ko. Kahit kapalit ng pag-gising ko ay ang masalimuot kong reyalidad. 

It was evening of December 24 when I've decided to went out of my room. The maids and the security guard went home yesterday for Christmas. Lyric is on the living room, designing a Christmas tree. I walked near to his direction and pick up a Christmas' balls. He noticed my presence and stopped like he was surprised to see me outside my room. 

"Oh..." inabot ko sa kanya ang christmas ball na hawak,  "Ilagay mo dyan." 

"You're here," he stated.

I rolled my eyes and threw a pillow to him, "Obviously," I muttered.

Ngumiti siya sa akin, "Help me on this." 

"Sure," sambit ko at tinulungan siya.

When Mom and Dad was still alive, we used to design a Christmas Tree. Dad will lift me up so I can put a star on the top of it. Damn, I missed those times. 

"The Knights will celebrate with us," Lyric informed me. 

"They're not a Knights anymore," I said to him.

"I know that, I'm just used to calling them like that. Pero gusto ka nilang makausap," Aniya.

Pinagpagan ko ang aking palad at 'tsaka tumayo, "Where are they?" tanong ko.

"Papunta pa lang, may pagkain pa ba gusto mong ipabili?" tanong din niya. 

"Wala na," sagot ko at ipinalibot ang Christmas lights sa Christmas Tree. 

"Be careful," Lyric reminded me. 

Tumango ako sa kanya at nag-ingat na hindi makuryente. Habang nag-aayos ay nag-uusap rin kami, ilang araw din kasi akong hindi makausap ng maayos. Well, depression sucks. 

Pagkatapos ayusin ang Christmas tree ay nagpasiya kami ni Lyric na maligo sa pool. Nagpalit muna ako ng racerback at cycling. Hindi kasi ako komportable na magswimming sa pool nang nakaunderwear lang.