Lies of the Heart (La Tierra de Conde Series#1)

Chapter 11

Chapter 11
Possessive

I hate being broken. I hate that I cannot go back. Akala ko, kaya ko na. Hindi pa pala.

"I'm sorry, Haven. I'm sorry. Hindi ko alam na may trauma ka. Sorry, Haven." Umiiyak si Shane dahil sinisisi niya ang sarili niya sa nangyari saakin. Nagkagulo sila. Nagalit si Max.

Nanatili akong nakapikit. Hindi pa pantay ang paghinga ko at hinihingal pa.

"Iuuwi ko na siya." Si Kier. Buti nalang nandoon siya, baka nilalamayan na ako ngayon. But I don't think I should thank him for saving me. He should let me drowned and die there. Hindi na dapat niya ako niligtas pa. Gusto ko rin namang mamatay na para makasama ko na ang mga magulang ko eh. I don't think I can stand alone like what my mom wants me to do.

Habang umaandar ang bangka, yakap-yakap ako ni Kier kahit basa na ang nakabalot na tuwalya sa akin. Mahigpit na para bang ayaw na niya akong bitawan pa. I feel safe. All my life, this is the very first time I feel safe. I feel that no one can hurt me because I have him by my side. I feel that he's going to protect me from harm. I feel that I'm not alone. I feel like... I'm home now.

Sometimes all you need in life is someone to wrap their arms around you, hold you tight and assure you that everything is going to be just fine. I smiled because of that thought. Shit, Haven. Why are you still smiling even though you're almost going to die? Wala ng mas tatanga pa saakin. Sinong matinong tao ang mamamatay na,masaya pa? Well, ako. Baliw na nga talaga ako.

"You have to change your clothes, Haven. Baka magkasakit ka." Hindi ko namalayan na nasa loob na pala kami ng apartment ko.

Kier, I want you to know something, but I don’t want to tell you. Whenever I see you, you have no idea how much I care about you. You have no idea how fast my heart beats when I see you. You have no idea that my heart also stops when you look at me. You have no idea how I hate you so much for the way you smile when you look at me.

I hate him so much for giving me this feeling na bago lang saakin. I hate him for being so arrogant, being so full of himself, being playboy, his ruthlessness, his possessiveness, his everything.

"Baby, please..." Dahan-dahan kong binitiwan ang mahigpit na pagkakayakap ko sa kanya. Nabasa na rin ang damit niya dahil saakin.

"Sorry..." Sabi ko.

He cupped my chin and the last thing I know, I feel his lips touched mine. Mabilis at isang patak lang iyon pero ramdam ko. I've never been kissed that way. And I think, his kiss is the best.

"I'll wait here." He said and I nod.

Umalis na rin siya ng sabihin kong ayos na ako dito. Gusto ko na rin naman magpahinga.

"Sorry talaga, Haven. Hindi ko alam eh." Patuloy pa rin ang paghingi ng tawad ni Shane the next day. Kinamusta nila ako. Si Sandro naman, pumunta pa sa apartment ko dahil nabalitaan niya ang nangyari. I told them I'm okay at hindi na ako nagsalita pa kahit tinatanong nila ako kung ano ba talaga ang nangyari bakit takot ako sa dagat.

I know, they respect and understand my decision not to tell them.

"Haven?" Hinarap ko ang tumawag saakin and I saw Lance.

"Lance? Anong ginagawa mo dito?"

"Boring kasi sa Hacienda, kaya napadpad ako dito. Ikaw?"

Pumunta ako dito sa Sta. Paredes para mamili ng mga gamit sa eskwela. Next week, magpapa-enrol na rin ako kasama si Max. Wala naman na akong ginagawa sa bahay kaya namili na ako.

"Wow! I didn't know na nag-aaral ka pa pala." He said with amazement.

"Yeah, second year college. Ikaw?"