My Strange Feelings (boyxboy)

Chapter 1

I reach out both hands as I stumbled across my bedroom bumping into drawers, side tables, desk you name it. I groan wiping the blood off my four head looking at him as he walked closer and closer to me taking his belt off his pants

He pulls it out and I flinch closing my eyes with face covered in my cuffed hand, whincing at every touch of the belt crashing on my skin countless times

Scars and bruises form everywhere on me as he increases his energy and engar. The belt whipes back and forth harder as the scars and bruises now crying droplets of blood

"you don't seem to get it do you" he ask not stopping the punishment

"so you refuse to do what your teachers tell you to do in class uh, always coming up with excuses" he continued and stopped seconds later taking a couple of steps back heavily breathing as sweat runs down his face

"I couldn't run it hurt" I manage to say

"and whose to blame for that, when will you be a man" he questioned with that rough deep voise of his as he comes closer grabbing me by my shirt picking me up with fists clanged into the shirt

"pathetic" he growled punching my nose, pushing me on my bed

I decided not to even turn and look at him so I burry my face into the sheets and wait for bullets to visit my shutting down body cause at this point these no reason to live anymore not that I even had a life

To my surprise I hear his footsteps walking further away from me then the door closes shut. Tilting my head up scanning my surroundings in my bedroom his gone, the punishment is over

Slowly getting up I whince at each step I take walking to my bathroom. Looking at myself in the mirror tears race down my cheecks thinking about how much I look like dad

He died two years ago in a car accident, it was my fault I just had to show him my ridiculous smile wearing the blue mickey mouse t-shirt he bought me that day for my class photo in kindergarten

The smiled looking at both me and the photo oblivious to the road. A truck horned and grabbed his attention and he quickly turned the car dodging the truck successfully but only to drive into a tree

I remember shaking him but he just layed there with blood everywhere then next part of the story well I wish I knew but I was in a hospital room with mom holding my hand praying on her knees while the ocean of tears flooded the room. Well she moved on with her life with Herold the monster that removed all the light in me and only left the darkness to keep me company

The man that beats me everyday with only one reason. Just to remind me whose the man of the house

Dipping my face in the little puddle of water in my cupped hands I look back at the mirror examining my black hair, funny looking ears and incredible smile my clean brown skin is now rather well enough for no one noticing my problems not that anyone pays attention

I slowly walk rather limp back to my bed and sit there opening one of the drawers taking out a big band of bandage and some gel thing I bought from the pharmacy

Using a wet towel to wipe the blood of my body I apply the gel on the bruises then for the cuts the bandage will do after everything was good to go. I rest my head on my bed and slowly draft to sleep

the next morning I wake up at my quiet vibrating phone under my pillow. I never set a song or something on my phone, it's too loud and Herold migh hear it and take it away. mom and Herold don't know I even have a phone

Natasha bought it for me, it's out little secret she's my best friend even since I wore the blue mickey t-shirt

I turn of the alarm and head for my bathroom. turn on the water in the shower, putting my arm in there to feel the water "perfect " I say more like whispered