back to you {chapters 1-4 out now}

•𝑓𝑜𝑢𝑟

           𝐜 𝐡 𝐚 𝐩 𝐭 𝐞 𝐫 • 𝐟 𝐨 𝐮 𝐫 : 𝐢 𝐰𝐢𝐬𝐡 𝐲𝐨𝐮 𝐰𝐨𝐮𝐥𝐝

i feel like what i said was a mistake. i knew who it was in that hallway whenever she started talking. but, i had no idea it was her whenever her and niall were speaking. niall got the hint i was slightly angry at him, but at the same time i feel like i did the right thing. i mean, she told me she still cared, and i told her that i did too, so what does it mean? i wish the signs were clearer.

i want to call her. i want to speak to her, but honestly, i'm terrified. i'm terrified she might think i'm lying. i don't even know if she even wants me back, i did put her through all of this in the first place. i wish time machines were things, things that could erase the past and make it better, but unfortunately, it cannot.

i hear a knock and my door, but i don't answer it. i know who it is, and i don't want to speak with him right now. he knocks again. "go away niall" i shout to him. "no, come out please" "why should i?" "because someone's here to see you" i fall silent for a moment. "who?" i ask with concern. "take a guess" i immediately jump up. it has to be her, at least i hope. i run to my closet and put a t-shirt on. "coming" i shout at him. i open the door and shes standing there, perfectly. her hair falls to her shoulders and is partially curled. her eyes stare into mine. "hey" i say quietly. "hi" she chuckles. she's a natural beauty, and it's not hard to see" "um, so, what do you need?" i ask nervously. "you" she says. "what?" "come with me" she pulls my hand. "good luck" niall mouths to me as i exit my house.

it's like nothing ever happened, it's like we haven't sat for months thinking everything over. she's open, she's free, she's okay. she's singing in the car and laughing like a maniac, and so am i. it's like we never broke up, we never fought. it was good and it was okay.

"why did you really want me here" i say as she drives. "what do you mean" she asks. "i mean, just yesterday you were all sad and stuff and now it's like nothing ever happened" she shrugs. "i talked to someone who helped me, and i decided it would just be better to go with it" i nod. "yeah, yeah that makes sense" "all that deep talk and stuff, save it for a rainy day, for now, just let it be" i smile. it was the truth, just let it be. even though we had so much to talk about, now isn't the time, and that time will come, but it isn't now.

a/n: i'm really really sorry if the tense (ex, past tense) is messed up, i accidentally keep putting some words in past tense and i usually catch myself, but if i didn't just lmk and i'll fix it! thank you and i hope you enjoy the story <3