Mi luz en la oscuridad

Keian

It's so early. Like Four-thirty a.m early. I set my alarm for four so that I could be up and ready for the first day of school but, I decided to set it to Four-thirty because that extra thirty minutes could keep me awake just in case I need to slap a bitch. That's junior year for ya.

    Really the only thing I'm excited for this year is seeing my friends and- nevermind I'm not excited for anything else. Ross and Fin are gonna be here any second to drive me to school. I ain't got the time or the patience to learn how to drive so I don't have a license.

I hop out of bed and brush my teeth and get dressed. I'm going through a whole.... I guess you can call it a pastel phase. I've been obsessed with pastel colors recently, hence why my outfit consists of a pastel long sleeve crew neck and black jeans. I really only have three pairs of shoes so I chose my black high top converse.

By the time I finish taming my messy curls and eating breakfast, Ross and Finley are waiting for me outside. Once I'm in the car we start heading to the school.

"Dude I am literally pumped for this year." Ross is the most energetic person I know. Sometimes he's way too much to handle.

Fin looks over at him in disgust. "Bitch, who the hell says pumped anymore? You're starting to talk like my grandma."

"You're just mad that this year is gonna suck for you because of your bitchy attitude you get when you're around people. Like seriously dude, kick back and relax."

I mean he's not wrong. I love Fin, but he's definitely not a morning person. He can be kinda bitchy towards people he doesn't know or like but in the inside he's a big softy. It's just takes a while for him to show it sometimes.

"Oh suck my big toe Rossy."

"I'd rather suck a dick but I guess I don't get to pick." What the fuck is that supposed to mean. Is he gay? God if he is it'll make it a hell of a lot easier to come out.

"O.m.g same. Being straight is so boring." I see Fin flip his imaginary hair and wink at the windshield like it's a camera. I can't hold it in any longer. I mean I have to say something.

I pull out my phone and pretend to scroll through insta when I say, "Yea but being straight is easy. I'd rather get my dick bit off than come out but, you know how it is." Uh-oh.

I don't hear a laugh or any response but I feel the car slam on its brakes so I look up from my phone to find Ross and Finley staring back at me. My face starts to turn red as I process the shock on their face. I'm not ready for this yet!

"Guys relax I'm just kidding." I'm trying to squeeze out more words without crying or nervously laughing but that's not gonna work so I just sit there with an uneasy smile on my face.

I think they're dead. I mean non of them are moving or blinking so.... yup dead it is. Just as I start to say something they start cracking up. It's a damn good thing they think that it's funny.

After a good twenty minutes of driving we arrive at school. The three of us go to the office get our schedules and head to our first period class. We don't have first period together but we have third together so that's less sucky. Once I find my class and settle down in my chair that's when I feel it. That nauseous, sick, twisty feeling you get when something is wrong. I look up and there he is. The prettiest boy I've ever seen. Damn it. Fuck high school, I'm so dead this year.