In His Arms Again (On-Going)

Chapter 2

Caleb's POV
Three days has passed and I'm here in the hospital. Cyryx was confined because he has dengue. He was crying cause his having headaches and pain in the back of his eyes.

"Caleb kumain ka muna sabi ng mom mo di ka pa nakain.." Sabi ni Tito Raven ay iniabot ang styro na may pagkain tipid akong ngumiti.

"Salamat Tito pero hindi pa ho ako gutom.." Sabi ko st bumaling ulit sa anak kong nakadextrose I wanna punch the nurses when they were putting the dextrose to him cause he kept crying butI held it cause I know he needed that.

"Iho kailangan mong kumain at baka ikaw naman ang magkasakit lalo ka lang mahihirapan.." Pilit ni tito sakin at napabuntong hininga na lang ako na tumango. Humarap ako kay tito.

"Sige po tito sa labas ko na lang po kainin pabantay po muna si Cyryx.." Malungkot na sabi ko dala ang pagkain tsaka tumayo nakangiting tumango si tito at naupo sa kinauupuan ko kanina at naglakad na ako palabas ng silid.

Pagkalabas ko ay dumeretso ako sa elevator at pinindot ang ground floor. Sumandal ako at pinilit na wag bumagsak ang luha.

Ang hirap pala maging tatay. Masakit na makita na ang anak ko may sakit. Halos paliparin ko ang sasakyan ko para lang maagapan si Cyryx. Yung wala akong magawa kasi di naman ako doctor.

Simula kagabi ng maconfine siya dito ay hindi pa rin siya gising. Parang pinipiga ang puso ko habang nasa tabi niya at pinagmamasdan siya iniintay na magising siya.

Ngayon lang siya na confine at nagkasakit ng ganito kaya bago sakin ang pakiramdam na ito ayaw ko ng maulit ito dahil baka mabaliw na ako ng tuluyan pag may nangyari masama kay Cyryx.

May isang battalion ng Emperior Forces ang palihim na nagbabantay sa Hospital para sa kaligtasan ko at ng anak ko.

Hayss ayaw ko man ipahawak kay Kim ang Volkov dahil buntis siya pero wala kaming choice kaya naman pinasama ko na rin si Red saknya para hindi ganon kabigat ng gagawin ni Kim.

she's already 7 months pregnant and maselan din ang pagbubuntis niya pero maayos ayos na siya ngayon hindi tulad nung first trimester niya na bed rest talaga siya.

The elevator's doors are now opened and I walked out of it and went straight to the entrance of the hospital. I just walked while carrying the styro.

I looked so haggard right now but I don't f*cking care about how I looked like right now I just want my son to get better.

I am now standing next to my car. I just used my subaru brz cause that's the car that I always use nowadays. I opened the door and I got inside and locked myself in there.

I opened the styro and it's fried rice, eggs and bacons. I sighed and started eating the food. I still can't believe that I didn't tool care of my son that well. He wouldn't be sick if I was always there for him. I hope he won't get mad at me for having a lot of shortcomings in his life.

I already pained him by letting his mother die without doing anything. I really hope my son wouldn't hate me for having a job like this. I'm f*cking scared that one day he will hate me and regret that I'm his father. I'm f*cking scared that he will see me as someone that's not worth his love and not worthy of being his father.

I finished my food then started crying. It still hurts that I couldn't save her. I'm f*cking angry at myself for not protecting her. I f*cking blame myself for everything.

5 years had passed and my hopes are still high but it's now slowly dying. Cyryx is almost 6 years old. It's been a year since that letter and searching for her started but we still can't find her.

It's like finding but there's nothing to find kind of thing. Everytime I come home in that 11 months telling my son I still have no information about his Mom and the way he cries and hugs me. I felt useless. I felt so f*cking useless cause I can't give my child what he needed. I can't give him his Mom.