Dealing with my Demons

Chapter 0 - Preface

This is my first ever story so it is probably gonna suck. There will be some pretty dark themes (It's Tokoyami of course there is) of depression and PTSD. I personally do have moderate chronic depression but I do not have PTSD. It is not my intention to make light of these conditions as they are both very serious real world problems and I hope I can give an accurate representation in my writing. There will be some pretty big changes to the backstory of characters (the majority of this story is giving Tokoyami a backstory) that change how they develop as characters. I will try to keep most of the facts about quirks and the world of my story based in canon. I have only seen up through season 4 of the anime and if major developments that change that are made in the future I don't feel like re-writing this entire story. The Tokotsuyu stuff will come later on as I want to develop Tokoyami a bit before they meet in the story. They won't get together until much later but it will happen. As for the interaction between Tokoyami and Dark Shadow, I am going to use a method that I have seen around that I feel works pretty well. Dark Shadow will always be Bolded whether speaking out in the open or communicating telepathically with Tokoyami. When they are communicating with their thoughts, they will both be Italicized. An example interaction:

Tokoyami is sitting at his desk in his dorm on a Wednesday evening trying to get some work done while he lets Dark Shadow get some time out in the open as he feels a bit cooped up. He kept a bright lamp on his desk just to make sure things didn't get out of hand.

Tokoyami(In his mind):Damn I wish I was paying more attention when Ectoplasm was teaching us about this stuff.

Dark Shadow(responding telepathically):Let me see, maybe I can help.

Tokoyami (speaking out loud): C'mon dude. You were paying even less attention than me. In fact I'm pretty sure you were asleep.

Dark Shadow (speaking out loud):Okay true but ouch. At least I was trying to help. Why don't you text Midoriya for help? He is always scribbling away at his notes.

Tokoyami (speaking out loud): Asking Midoriya is a good idea but he's probably asleep already. I'll ask him at lunch tomorrow. This isn't due until Friday anyway.

Dark Shadow (speaking out loud):I wish I could help more but you kinda pushed me away those first few years so I couldn't learn the basics.

Tokoyami (telepathically):C'mon dude don't talk about that out loud. You know I try to hide my past from the rest of the class. It's a really sore topic. Sorry about those first few years btw I was young and scared and stupid to be honest.

Dark Shadow (telepathically):Oh shoot, my bad. I appreciate the apology though. I was really crazy those first couple time I physically manifested. I had no self control and was not used to interacting with the physical world at all. Didn't help that we didn't really get to know each other better before shit hit the fan. I'm sorry as well for putting you through all that. Things are getting better now though and we are inseparable.

Tokoyami (telepathically):Yeah literally.

Anyway enough explanation and rambling let's get on with what will probably be cringefest 2020