Constantly, people tell you to just move on and forget him right away, as if you just needed to follow a five-step skincare routine from YouTube. As much as you wish to be as easy-flowing as that, you always question yourself why you can't. Why you can't forget all the memories you had together, all the dreams you once created for the both of you, all the hows and whys you answered with each other.
On remembering these things, a wave of sadness comes along, and that annoying tears fall from your eyes again. On remembering the moment you felt real from hearing those promises uttered the first time, it came falling again. On remembering the tiny details that hope for a long-standing kilig, it came falling again.
The moving on part was the hardest part, thinking that things will not happen the same way again. Crying is good; it tells you that you are capable of loving and caring. But whether you like it or not, you just can't be in control of all the things around you. There are just reasons we don't really get to understand. Yeah, life sucks, and some other things just keep falling out of place. But don't blame yourself for the things that came out, it's the time, the setup, or the situation that made you end up that way.
Let me tell you this, letting go is a sign of bravery. Maybe you wanted to find out if there's still something to fight for, even a little bit, but if things ought to happen, it will. All you can do now is to wish and pray that things, this time, will turn out better for both of you.
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