Fallen Paradise

P r o l o g u e

Sometimes people are brought together by chance. They can live their whole lives in the same city without ever crossing paths or knowing if the other exists, but then fate intervenes and leads them to each other. Abigail's dream was simple: to enjoy life. Even if she were to be betrayed by the people closest to her. But that dream was difficult to fulfill until she met Jake. She had no idea that he would become something more to her than some person she hated.

He liked to take everything from life, sometimes taking so much that he forgot about the feelings of others. Jake was a charming selfish boy who didn't know that this facade would soon be destroyed by the one that had burst into his universe like a tornado. He made her believe that the world was a kaleidoscope of events and that she was a wizard in it. Only a silent snap of his fingers and her world would collapse, taking away all the happiness that he had given. Jake didn't even know she was the air of his lungs. In this game, they'll find something important, but a decision remains to be made by each of them. Will they choose love or enmity?

It all started with two people who had no idea that love could break them both.

The Fallen Paradise is a place where dreams come true and break down.

"We wanted to shine brighter than the stars, to fly to heaven, but our paradise fell down, and so did we..."

Heavy bass music echoed through the walls of the room, filling the emptiness of the body inside. The darkness that opened in front of me, lit by bright stars, absorbed me with my head, and I had no chance to break out of her chains. Another cigarette was in my mouth, and I didn't care which one it was. I've been smoking more than I should have in the last few weeks. Looking up at the night sky, I couldn't take my eyes away from the black canvas that made me think about a lot of things. If you think about it well, it wouldn't have been so beautiful if it hadn't been decorated with little stars creating beauty with just its outlines. The sky could not show the power of these giants, which did not let the darkness completely overwhelm this world. I compared myself to this darkness because it was like my soul. If the night sky was helped by the stars to get rid of the darkness, then my only star would have left me, leaving the demons that were killing my soul to be torn apart.

I took a puff and felt my throat burned, allowing nicotine to fill my lungs. Holding the smoke in for a few seconds longer, I felt a familiar bitterness and let it out freeing my body from this poison. It took me some time to quit smoking, but I started again for some reason. From the very first time we met she would tell me that smoking kills; and each time I would smoke a cigarette, she would look at me with a special look on her face. Even though she may not have known how her gaze affected me, it made me quit smoking. Only now it doesn't matter anymore, and she won't look at me with anxiety in her eyes anymore, and won't say that she's worried about my health because I started smoking again when the world around me started falling apart.

I didn't care about anything in this world until she came along. Is it possible that one person could change you to such an extent that you discover a whole another side of yourself? She was the stubbornest girl I have ever met. While others wanted to be with me, she had exactly opposite desires. She burst into my life like a tornado and turned everything upside down in it. I hated her for that: for giving me false hope, for always being there for me during my hard times, for understanding, for showing me life in different colours.

I hated myself more than anything for past mistakes that made me lose her.

I took a bottle of alcohol and quickly began to pour it into my body, feeling how the bitter liquid was filling me. It seemed to me that only alcohol and cigarettes could understand me by sharing my loneliness. They killed me in silence; and I let my thoughts think loudly. I was surrounded by half-naked bodies of girls, but did it matter to me? The void inside is hard to fill with someone else's body, especially when there's a black hole in it. The light was pressing on my eyes, but I ignored the pain that came along. How many days have I been up? I lost track of time, and I was lost in days. Day and night were blended together, and the promiscuous lifestyle became familiar to me. I went back to my old self, but I didn't feel the same satisfaction as before. Every night some random girl ends up in my bed trying to amuse me, seduce me with her look. They thought I belonged to them, but they didn't even know that I would never belong to them. The only one I needed was too complicated, far too far away from me to be able to reach.

What else did she want? Why was she such a difficult person, hard to deal with? I could have given her everything, but she didn't want it. Now each of us wears masks. Hurting each other in public was our way out. It's unbearable to see her every day, but I put on an indifferent mask and show her that she no longer matters to me; she's left behind. I try to hit her with my words as hard as I can to make her pay attention to me so that I can see her eyes that used to look at me with tenderness.

We make mistakes that completely change our future. We pay for them to understand how stupid we were when we made them. Life is a bitch that will not give you a second chance at the happiness you once felt for a short period of time.

One day I knelt down at the risk of being overthrown. We wanted to shine brighter than the stars that shone above our heads, but we didn't understand how we could hurt each other leaving the path of pain behind. I just had to accept it and move on. Even though it was a lot harder than it seemed.

Paradise cannot be eternal because every beginning has its end.

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