Unsent Letters, Unsaid Feelings [South Park]

Unsent Letters, Unsaid Feelings

      When it came to big choices in life, Kyle was always the man of careful planning. He kept in mind every instance and possibility where things could go wrong, made plans to avoid the worst scenarios, while thinking about leaving escape routes, small shortcuts and plenty of Plan Bs along the way. It was completely different from his usual hot-headed self, who would rush into the most dangerous situations whenever someone trampled over his pride and sense of morality. No. When it came to long-term plans, he wanted everything to be perfect and steadfast.

However, as everyone slowly started moving on with their life, Kyle eventually realized that he got lost in his own daydreams for too long. Life went on without him and his future fell apart like a house of cards. Plan A was no more, Plan B had no chance on becoming reality and when Cartman took a step toward to being independent, he realized that Plan C, in which he is always one step ahead of everyone else, was nothing more than just a pipe dream.

Out of the blue, an unknown fear started torturing Kyle, biting into his very being as it slowly poisoned even his happiest his thoughts. Everyone was leaving and they took parts of his childhood with them, only giving him some strange kind of bitter loneliness as a farewell gift.

Cartman had a plan to get rich. As soon as he got the opportunity, Stan moved in with Wendy, away from South Park. It was only matter of time before Kenny finally announced his intent on leaving him behind, ultimately turning Kyle into a faded picture in their shared memories. There was no way in hell that any of them will return to this place. Instead, they will leave him alone as the failed prodigy who lost his way in life.

However, to Kyle's greatest relief, the blond clung to his promise that he would help Karen apply to college and get her out of South Park in some way or other. Thanks to the girl, Kyle'd indirectly won some time, but this calm period didn't last long and before Kyle had a chance to react, Karen was also out of town.

He ran out of time once again and desperately started clinging to something that could only live as a childish fantasy in the back of his mind. Plan Z . The impossible scenario, as he liked to call it; because the likelihood of that plan to become reality was just as impossible as reaching Plan Z itself. He would give up on life sooner than to try every possibility. Unless...

Unless he skips everything else and jumps straight to his last resort...

At this point, life made it clear that planning everything would get him absolutely nowhere, so Kyle had to step out of his comfort zone. What he did not expect, that his decision will be based more on an emotional impulse than logic. For once, he listened to his heart and eventually ended up crushing years of careful planning with one single rushed sentence, which was uttered on a summer night, after he downed enough cans of beer to lose control over his tongue.

They were sitting on the porch of his parents' garden, enjoying the cool breeze as Kyle rested his head on Kenny's shoulders. He let the warmth emanating from the body next to him calm his senses, until he was eventually lulled near sleep by the blond's rhythmic breathing. Their usual comfortable silence enveloped them where none of the boys really felt the need to force out newer and newer topics to keep the conversation going. But if Kenny moves away from town, there will be no one to share these moments with. Nobody could ever really replace him. Kyle suddenly felt like, if Kenny indeed leaves, the world might as well catapult itself into the sun.

It was far too inviting for him to present the thought that has been lingering at the back of his mind ever since he started thinking about a lonely future. He raised his head, wincing at the sudden change of temperature as he stared into those blue eyes, waiting for Kenny to turn toward him.