Empty Sidewalk

Never Again

August 04th, 2014

It was raining like i've never experienced before in California, nights like these I decided where perfect. In the midst of that downpour sitting in my window seat I was back in my mind to six months ago, when everything changed, or as my best friend Jay says "to when it all went to hell" between Sebastian and I. We had been living together for six months, and dated since seventh grade, I really did think it was forever, but now I know "forever" doesn't exist, well not outside of Twilight at least.

Anyone could describe Seb as dark and mysterious, but with an amazimg smile that would drive half the school crazy, wether it was annoying the shit out of the other boys or making the girls crazy. Although, not one of them tried to get in between us, I always had thought it was because he had kept it clear he was with me, but now looking back at it maybe, that's what he wanted me to think. I still remember the look on his face, the scowl in his eyes when he shoved me out our, he's apartment. Over five years together and I failed to see him, the real him, the him that abuses physically and mentally, until it was too late. Now touching that part of me that he damaged forever, I think of the dream I'll never be able to fulfill.