Dancing With Your Ghost (A BakuDeku Angst)

Dancing With Your Ghost

hi guys! this is my first story and its only gonna be one chapter but its kinda long bc dis story short :p enjoooyyy!!! (btw there are a lot of flashbacks)

i cant deal with it anymore. He's gone. i need to get that into my head. He's gone forever.

~flashback~

~"Kacchan, wait for me!" Deku pleaded. Bakugo smiled and waited for the smaller boy to catch up before kissing the green curls on his head. They kept walking to the store. it was almost Christmas, and he wanted to get his lover a nice prize. 'i think a bunch of all might merch will do the trick,' he thought. Deku was happily cruising through the different racks of All Might shirts. "Which one do you like?" Deku grinned and picked up a white shirt with all might in the middle. "This one!"~

~flashback ends~

i held the shirt i bought for him, now stained in blood. i should have taken better care of him. i shouldnt have let him out of my sight. Shouldn't have bullied him all these years, and after i told him to swan dive... he did it a different way...

~flashback~

~"i love you so much Deku, you know that, right?" Deku pressed his face into Bakugo's hard, formed chest. "I know. I am your Deku!" He declared happily, turning his large, emerald-green eyes onto him. He closed his eyes and gave the cutest grin that Bakugo had ever seen him make. It made Bakugo's heart flutter as he kissed the small boy. "I got you the greatest preset for Christmas, Kacchan!! i cant wait for you to see it!" Bakugo ruffled his hair playfully. "Well, its three days until Christmas, you're gonna have to wait for yours!"~

~flashback ends~

i started to cry onto the water from my tears caused the dry blood on his shirt to liquidize again and spread. "DAMMIT! I could have stopped him! fuck, fuck, FUCK! im such a failure!"

~flashback~

~"Are you ready to open your presents, Deku?" Bakugo asked. Deku snatched the present happily ad tore off the wrapping paper, revealing all of the merch that Bakugo bought for him. "Wow... wow! this is amazing Kacchan! My present is so much more sucky compared to yours," Deku said, now wishing he had bought a better present for Kacchan. Suddenly, Deku;s phone buzzed and he was called to go fight a villain. "Seriously?! on Christmas? Cant i just have one day to my boyfriend?" He kissed Bakugo on the forehead. "Ill be back right away. Dont open your present until i get back!"~

~flashback ends~

My present remains unopened a week later. i shouldnt have let him go to that fight. god im so stupid. ah.. katsuki stop crying. honestly i should just die so i could be with Deku. i dont know if i deserve to be in paradise with him though..

~another flashback~

[Deku's spine is broken and his skull is cracked; all of his limbs are gone except for his head and right arm.] "k-kacchan," Deku cried. "even if i survive i wont be able to be a hero anymore." Bakugo put his hand on his face to keep his tears from leaking out. it pained him to see his usually happy and bubbly boyfriend in such pain. something that deku asked suddenly jolted him back. "Kill me please, Kacchan." bakugo stared at him. "W-what about all the other Christmasses to come? I'll buy you all the all might stuff you want! ill save money so we can go on nice vacations together. ill even stop being a hero so i can spend all my time with you!"~

~flashback end~

i shifted the present around in my bloody hands. i dont even wanna live anymore, but what would deku have wanted?

~flashback again (sorry~

Bakugo fell asleep in a chair next to dekus bed. he was suddenly awoken by a the machine flatlining. 'no,' he thought. 'he's not dead. thats just a malfunction in the system, right?' in dekus right hand, he saw a long syringe, loosely gripped and bloody. on deku/s chest, there were a bunch of puncture marks where deku stabbed the syringe. bakugo stared in shock as his tears dripped onto the ground in sync with the blood.

'flashback end'

the puncture marks are still in dekus stupid all might shirt. maybe i should open my present now. i ripped it open dully and a small box was inside. i opened the box to find two rectancle lockets, one silver and one gold. i opened the gold one to find a picture of me and deku, smiling. on the other side in small writing said, "i love you, Kacchan."

~1 year later~

i traveled up the hill to where the cherry blossoms were. it was Christmas, the anniversary when my boyfriend, the number 1 hero, died. the whole world was mourning when they should be celebrating with family. i went to one tree where they buried deku. the silver locket was hanging, swinging sadly and lonely from one of the branches. i lit a few candles and put them in the small bowl next to deku's picture. smiling to keep back my tears, I pretended to put one hand on his hip while pretending to entangle my hand in his while we slowly danced together under the falling petals. It was almost like he was actually there. God, i missed him so much.

our number 1 hero is dead. my whole world is dead.

heyyy i actually made this story like a year ago but i forgot about it so if there are cherryblossoms its because they were still my favorite flower back then XDD i will make more angst and other stories, you can request for any ships and blah blah blah ill make oneshots of that and yeah. pls enjoy and read my other storryyyy!!!! i will not claim this as finished just in case you would like to request a ship good byyeeeeeee