Rose
As i lay down i realize that i cant see my beloved James. We haven't seen each other in 9 months and i miss him. My name is India Rose Brooks. But I go by the name of Rose. I first met James as i was walking. I was listening to music and i tripped over a rock. James was walking behind me and as I fell he caught me. Ever since I looked into my eyes I knew it was love at first sight. We exchanged numbers and if I do say so myself he held me a lot longer then he needed to. But ever since then our love has grew more each day. I have long curly hair that used to be brown but I dyed it Velvet Red, green eyes, dimples, and I am Biracial. But that's enough about me lets get back to the story. It's 3 A.M and i can't go to sleep at all. Not because James didn't call me he calls me every night. I can't sleep because I fear that i may never see James ever again. Every time he comes down here i never see him. Something always goes wrong and that keeps me from seeing him. I beg myself not to cry because i hate crying. Crying shows a sign of weakness to me. As hard as I try not to I bawl my eyes out into my Hello Kitty pillow. My phone rings and I realize James is calling me. As much as my heart is telling me to answer the phone just so I can hear his voice, I don't. Thinking i was foolish enough to think we ever had a chance from the start. I don't think this because i don't love him, I do, I have, and I always will.
James
I am currently laying down calling Rose over and over again. Worst of all she is just letting the calls ring through. I know she's upset about not seeing me for the hundredth time but i saw this coming. We never get to see each other. You'd think she'd get use to it by now but nope she still crys every night into that Hello Kitty pillow of hers. Instead of introducing myself i'll just cut straight to the story. You guys can just call me James. But just like every other time I cry to. I hate to admit it but I cry every time i know she crys. I don't want to hurt her for that is not my intentions. I waited for her at our favorite restaurant for over 30 minutes. She never came and soon after I started leaving i got a text from her that says I can't see you I have to go visit my Grandparents, so just go back home. It seems that I'm Immune to the pain that i used to feel when I could never see Rose. She still feels pain and I don't blame her we try and try over and over again but it nevers works. I'm starting to think if we were even really meant for each other at all. I mutter under my breathe as I say stop it you know we are meant for each other. After the 15th time of calling her, I stop and realize she's not going to answer. I want to fall asleep to her voice over the phone but my heart tells me that won't happen tonight. Thinking i was foolish enough to think we had a chance. But not because I dont love her, I do, I have, and I always will.
Rose
I wake up and realize that I have 15 missed calls from James. Out of guilt i call him back and wait for the phone to ring. 1 ring, he answers with a raspy hello. I reply hello thinking that he just woke up. He says Good morning beautiful you did not answer my calls last night i needed to hear your voice. I smile brightly then realize he cannot see my smile so it quickly fades as I say My bad i fell asleep. He then ask were you cring last night my beloved Rose? I gently say no i did not cry last night. He says do not lie to me Rose I know you were crying, there is no need to cry for we will see each other again. I feel a spark of anger and yell into the phone no every time you say we will see each other we never do so stop getting your hopes up. He yells back I will nerver give u or not have hope. Hope is the only thing that we will ever have. Without hope our relationship is just nothing. I ove you to much to give up. I become even angrier for him saying this as I yell we never had a chance and we never will just give it up James. He becomes outraged as he yells you know what your right we never had a chance from the start how foolish of me to even have loved you from the start. My nose stings as it always does when I am about to cry and the tears spill over. I sit in silence as I finally hang up the phone and get dressed. I throw on a Hello KItty crop top, dark blue button up shorts, and pink 6 inch high heels. Then I apply my makeup pink lipstick, eyeliner, and pink eyeshadow. As I am just about to head out the door I grab my Pink iPod and my green beats. Then i gently close the door behind me.
James
She hung up on me i think out loud as I then realize what i said to her. I know she is crying because if she said that to me i'd be crying to. A tear slips down my face as I quickly wipe it away. As I said before i do not like it when I hurt her that is not my intentions. I just sit there as our phone conversation replays in my head over and over and over again. Causing me to get angrier each time I hear it. I end up punching a hole in the wall because i hurt her. I wash the blood of my knuckles and i hop into the shower. While i'm in the shower I think about everything we have been through and how i will never be happy with another girl if I ever lost her. She's my true love i can never find anyone like her or better then her. She is one of a kind and if I ever lost her I would go insane. I also know she can easily get any guy her heart desires and if that guy makes her happy then I will let him take her away from me. Because if he can make her happier then I can then he deserves my beloved Rose. I love her so much that if her happiness is at stake i will let her go. I hop out of the shower and get dressed I decide to take a walk. As i am walking i see a girl with a Hello Kitty crop top on. My heart immediately realizes it to be no other then my beloved Rose. Her eyes are down and I realize she's listening to music. Then sharply her eyes meet mine and she runs toward me. I engulf her in a loving embrace and plan to never let her go. She smiles and I look into her bright green eyes as I see hurt and love in them.
Rose
I can't believe i am hugging my beloved James. I am beyond happy i have only dreamed this its never actually happened. We walk together as we hold hands laugh and kiss. He tells me how much he has missed me and how beautiful I look. I tell him the same and how handsome he looks while i giggle uncontrollably. We eat and look into each others eyes as we feed each other what we each have on our plates. People in the restaraunt awe and tell us how cute we look together. They say we are perfect and they wish they had what we have. Little do they know what we go through. Because if they knew they wouldn't say awe. Truth is I dont wish what we have on anybody. I wish they never experience what we have and still do. We are nowhere near perfect we are far from it. Just as quickly as he had appeared to me I wake up and realize it was all a dream.
To be continued
