50 shades of salmon

Chapter 35

It's been a month since I've been in here, as much as I resented going it was the best for me. I'm eating again, I don't think about Sting, I'm better. I was diagnosed with clinical depression, given anti-depressants, and many hours of therapy. Depression effects everyone differently in my case it was panic/anxiety attacks, sleeping, not eating, no motivation. Trauma effects everyone differently and my way of coping was sending me in a downward spiral that I wouldn't be able to get out of.

"So Miss. Heartfilia, how do you feel about going back home?" My therapist asked.

"Um, I feel good. I really am excited and school ends in about a week I think" I smiled playing with the sleeves of my white sweater. 

"How do you feel about Natsu? When you came in you said you didn't want to see him and that you hated him" she crossed her legs and pulled out a pen and her notebook.

"I miss him, a lot" I nodded "I was angry, I felt betrayed but now I completely understand" I continued to play with my sleeves "If he didn't, I don't know I was at such a low point, I couldn't even shower all I did was sleep and work, oh by the way I was fired I completely forgot about my job and got fired" I smiled "I hated that stupid job"

"How did you feel when you were fired?" she questioned.

"Nothing" I folded my hands together, "Like I said, after the attack" I paused and thought back to how I was spiraling and the slightest things would tick me off or how I was scared to leave. "I felt nothing, I only felt negative emotions and that positive ones were too good for me" 

"And how do you feel now?" she asked.

"I can be happy and no one can take that from me" I looked out the window "I'm not cured but I am better, this trauma is something that will always be with me and I will continue to get better as time goes on but as of now I am okay". I rubbed my palms across my leggings.

"You've improved a lot over this last month, and I hate to say it but this will be the last you see of me" she took her glasses off and placed her hands on her notebook "I will set up an appointment with a friend of mine so you can continue to talk to someone, also the pills you've been taking here are also a big factor in your improvement so I'll send over a script your pharmacy"

"You mean it's actually time for me to leave? I can get out here?" I asked my eyes getting wide.

"Yes Lucy" she smiled standing up and walking towards the door.

"When am I leaving?" I stood up and walked behind her.

"Now, go pack your bags" she opened the door and stood by it smiling.

"Dr. Stone you are a saint" I hugged her and skipped out her office and out the building I spun around as I got outside and basically sprinted to the building with everyones rooms in it. My room was only on the second floor so I didn't have far to travel. I threw all my clothes into the suitcase I had with me and grabbed all the papers I had written on.

"Miss. Heartfilia, where are you off too" a nurse asked as he passed by.

"I'm out of here" I smiled turning towards the door.

"I'll have someone bring you to the office yeah" he nodded walking away to get someone.

"Mrs. Julie hi" I waved at the woman that stopped in my doorway, "I'm all packed and ready" I patted my suitcase. 

"Well let's go shall we" she turned on her heels and walked down the hall to the elevator, the hall was silent besides the clacking of her heels.

"God I can't wait to wear heels again" I sighed leaning against the elevator wall.