when i fall asleep, will i see you? | jjk

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CELINE

"hey, are you okay? you've been twiddling your necklace and staring off into space for like, five minutes."

interrupting my thoughts, i look up to see Kim Seokjin, a close friend of mine, drinking coffee and looking concerned. somehow, he still manages to look beautiful.

after a moment of silence, i sheepishly reply, "yeah, sorry for zoning out. just thinking about things."

"hmm, okay. just make sure you get enough sleep! you've been doing that quite often these days."

laughing, i say, while saluting, "yes, mom! i swear i will get enough sleep. scouts honor!"

scolding me, jin says, "ya! you were never in girl scouts!!"

while i was having a giggling fit, seokjin had managed to stand up without me noticing. slowly, he reaches for my blouse and places it back onto my shoulder. startled, i start to ask him what that was, but stop. noticing my heart beat speeding up, i suddenly become aware of the way jin is staring at me. our eyes lock, each person waiting for the other to do something, anything. after a couple of seconds, i look down.

"thanks" i say to him while looking at my shoes.

"no problem."

flustered, trying to find something to do, i wave my hands around. i spill seokjin's coffee on his lap and my clothes.

"oh my gosh, i am so sorry!"

i reach into my pocket for some napkins. hurriedly, i try to wipe jin's pants with the napkins i found. so caught up in the moment, i didn't realize where exactly the coffee had spilled. slowly moving away i finally see where the coffee was on seokjin's pants: his crotch area.

looking up at jin, our eyes meet on surprise.

once again, i apologize profusely: "i am so sorry. i am so so sorry. i didn't mean to, i- did i mention i'm sorry? cause i don't think i did. let me say it again-"

"it's okay! i'm fine!" jin says, "you can stop apologizing now."

i sigh.

"are you sure though? that coffee was pretty hot. i hope i didn't burn you" i say, expressing concern for the man.

"okay, it might have burned me a little bit, but are you okay? a lot of it splashed on you, too."

i look down to see my uniform splattered with dark liquid, staining my white shirt. not being focused on seokjin, i begin to notice a tingling sensation. after a couple seconds, it worsens, but not to the point where it is unbearable.

"yeah, i'm okay. just a little dirty."

"well, i hope you get cleaned up. i will take my leave now, " jin states. he stands up and walks out the door, but not without a wave goodbye.

sighing, i droop my head. i feel like i did something wrong, but i don't know how to fix it. i mean, i already apologized. what else am i supposed to do?

[pulished 3-20-2021]

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author's note:
what should celine do?
what do you think she was thinking about in the first part of the chapter?