Downward Spiral (Izuocha)

Chapter 8 Concern

Midoriya P.O.V.

The bell had finally rang after what seemed like ages of scribbling down my notes. It was really stronger than me, my hands were trained to write everything I saw that my brain deemed important and therefore I wasn't missing on my notes, but I really had no idea what I was writing. My mind would go blank for a few moments and then come back, not understanding a single thing, which only made maths with Ectoplasm much harder than it already was. I was heading out first as I would rush to keep myself away from the people that I would normally weigh down, but it wasn't a long walk to the dorms, and I heard a sweet voice call me by my nickname. All I wanted to do was sleep, but she somehow managed to keep me awake even in moments like this.

"Deku-kun, wait up" I heard her say again. I stopped and she finally reached me, still panting as she tried to recover her breath. We started walking in silence and through the corner of my eye I could see that she was trying to find the words to say something but I couldn't figure out what so I decided to act up and ask "Are you ok Uraraka?" She seemed to be taken back by this and looked at me wide eyed with a look of concern that wouldn't be normal for her. "Are YOU ok?" she asked back, trying to see my reaction. I just fake smiled and said "Of course!" "Deku, you have quite the bags under your eyes and you look like you are going to pass out. I haven't seen you around as much and that goes when we should be eating as well. I am worried for you, ever since that night that night, have you been blaming yourself more and had more nightmares?"

She had actually pieced it together. Or at least, to some extent, and I had to think about what to answer. If I told her the truth, then it would just be worse for her and that is not what I want to happen, so I just stare at her and decide that a half-lie is my best option so that she isn't concerned or I become more of a burden for her. "If something is wrong, I'll tell you Uraraka. You know I've been training and I'll try to get more sleep, I promise." I would never tell her if something was wrong, and even though I would try to sleep earlier, it was just a lost cause at this point. Her expression never changed and she decided to give one last statement before reaching the dorms. "Deku, you are my best friend and I will be concerned if you don't look healthy. Just, tell me if something is up. I trust you." The words 'best friend' stuck with me and I lost all hope, but I just smiled, and as we reached the dorms I headed straight for my room.

I instantly flopped in my bed and started crying. I can't believe she is being pulled down to this extent because of her pity on me. It is my fault and it is because I hoped that maybe we could become closer. I shouldn't be as close, it would be better for her, one less weight off her chest. I soon drifted off to sleep, not caring if I had homework or anything, I just wanted to close my eyes and forget the waste of space that I am and not bother those around me. That would have been the plan until I heard loud banging on my door.

Uraraka P.O.V.

He went off to his room and I went to mine and changed into more comfortable clothes and went back down to the common area. I was greeted by Tsu, Momo and Mina, as they had probably done most of their homework like me at school except for Mina, she really was carefree. "Is something wrong Uraraka-san? You seem sad." My frog friend said, as she could probably tell that I wasn't as bubbly as always. I sat down with them as Momo offered me a cup of tea that I took without a doubt. "I'm just worried" I said letting out a sigh at the end as the subject did exhaust me. "Because of Midoriya?" she asks, once again being as forward as always. My face went a bit red but I couldn't deny it, everyone could see that he looked different., and I just nodded my head in response. 

"Hmmmm, are you thinking too much about Midoriya, Uraraka?" Mina questioned in her teasing manner, as she already speculated my feelings for him, but I couldn't give her the benefit of the doubt or it would be the end of me. Feeling a bit more flustered, I finally got out what I wanted to say "It's just he is one of my closest friends and I can't help but worry." That was the truth, he really was one of my closest friends, and if it where normal for him to be like this I wouldn't mind, but of course, it wasn't. "Just a friend?" Mina asked again, and this would continue until lunch.

Bakugo P.O.V.

Damn Deku just rushed off from school and round cheeks went after him because she isn't blind after all. He would probably want to get some shut eye, I mean, it was obviously written on his dumbass face. "You look angrier than usual" said shitty hair as we walked back to Heights Alliance. "The shitty nerd isn't taking care of himself. He is being stupid and I hate it." "Soooo, you worried for Midoriya?" That took me back, as it was unexpected and I just let my annoyed mind speak freely. "Fuck no, he is a worthless Deku, but the fact that he is doing this is just idiotic, especially coming from him. And I can't let my rival be a complete idiot." I was right, if not he would have just become a very easy punching bag and he said he would put up a fight.

I spent my time in my room until it was time for dinner and I headed down and instantly noticed that, of course, he was missing, so I went to get his ass out of bed. I knocked with anger built up at the door and heard shuffling. A muffled "Who is it?" came out and of course he would instantly know as soon as I talked. "It's lunch time nerd, so get your sorry ass down there and eat like a normal person would. Don't be a worthless piece of shit." I went back down and soon after he came down still in school clothes with puffy red eyes and yawning his ass out. I don't know what he was doing, but it better not be something stupid.

Heyoo. So today I spent a bit more time practicing my Japanese so it will come out later, I am sorry. Still, I hope you have or had a fantastic day and you matter a lot and you are loved. If you ever wanna cry from sheer happiness and cuteness just go watch the episode in which Eri smiles for the first time at the festival, you won't regret it. And yeah, I say this because I watched it earlier today and because Eri shall be seen in the near future in this fanfic. See ya tomorrow people, thank you, and I cant believe so many people find this interesting, but I appreciate you. ( ͡°ω ͡°)