Upon the moon

Over you..

I deserved a better love than you, then again I didn't want another love but you.

You were like my prince on a White Horse, but one day you came riding in with her in your head, and I didn't see it.

I was too blind, too naive, but now I think back and say "What did I see in you?"

A blond boy with a bad haircut? A non believer? Or maybe someone to trust, someone who showed me so much pain, but so much love.

The way I felt for you showed me what love really is.

Before I met you I was stupid, I thought that love was just fairy tales on TV, But I was wrong.

Love is a painful ride one where you don't want to keep going, But there's something holding you back from jumping off. Falling for you was easy, You're great (in a way) not to mention your bad talking skills,

but even those short stupid senseless conversations.

Made me fall deeper and deeper under your spell, and I thought I was the witch.

Told myself I wasn't going to fall in love, that i wasn't going to go through the same heart break my mom did,

but three months later and two or three 'i love you's and I was in a whole new world, one where people were throwing me signs and I was ignoring them.

Just because I thought for a split second... You loved me..

And that day you told me we "Rushed into things"...

We "Should be friends" ...

That day I learned what it is to lose, to die inside, to be heartbroken! Loving you was the stupidest thing I'll ever do,

but it was the thing that made me who I am now; a strong knowing young girl who now doesn't take her life, her family for granted.

I'm happy with my family, my friends with my new self. You'll always have a piece of my heart, but one day I'll get it back and that be the last time I'll remember that young, stupid, naive, and innocent girl who actually thought that a boy like you could love a not-so-perfect, plus size, ugly girl like me.

I wish you happiness, for you to marry the girl you 'Love' and have kids and be truly blessed,

but i also wish for you to feel what I felt, for you to lose, for you to feel the pain I did. I'll grow up, use what you made me feel to write and write and make my dreams come true and one day I have a feeling we'll meet in the future and you'll see me a new woman. Who isn't affected by your looks, your touch, your kisses.

They won't even make me look. Cuz that day, I'll be over you..