Badboy's obsession| Jimin ff

17. Chapter

I heard a vibration and since it wasn't my phone, I looked at Jimin's phone which was laying on the nightstand. And what I read shocked me to the core.....

It is your baby, Jimin.

Did Jimin have another girlfriend? Why was someone saying that she was pregnant by him? Did he know about the pregnancy before? Why didn't he tell me? All these questions went through my head as tears started to form in my eyes. I loved him, didn't he love me? Wasn't I good enough for him?

Jimin came out of the bathroom. I straight ahead went to him with his phone in my hand.
"Can you explain this." I demanded as I showed him the text. I saw how his eyes widened.
"Soojin" he said, touching my arm.
"Do not touch me." I said with sincerety.
I looked at him waiting for an explanation.
"Please just trust me. This text is a lie."
A tear fell down my face.
"How do you expect me to trust you? You saved her contact with a heart? What is she to you? If she'd text lies, then why save her like that? Why not block her? It doesn't look good for you Jimin. I don't know how I can trust you."
I was a crying mess at the end of my speach. My heart felt like it broke into a million pieces.
"Soojin, you know I love you, right?" He said, tears starting to form in his eyes.
"How do I know that's not a lie? I love you, I trusted you, but I don't think that whatever this is, that it's real. Where is the honesty?"
Jimin looked at the floor.
"As long as you won't explain this, our relationship is over."
Jimin kept looking at the floor. I was sad. Sad, that I wasn't worth an explanation. I felt like nothing. Like I was nothing to him.  I packed my things and went out of the room.

I didn't know wether to tell the others or not. Nor did I know where I was about to sleep.

I just sat there, on the floor, in the hallway, tears streaming down my face.
"What has happened, honey?" I heard my mum's soft voice. I started crying more. The memories coming back.
"I don't want to be here anymore." I sobbed.
My mum engulfed me in a hug.
"Everything's going to be fine. We're only going to be here for a few more days."
Her shirt was wet from my tears.
"He broke my heart." I brought out.
"He's not worth it. He's not worth your beautiful tears. Nor is he worth your heart." She tried making me feel better.
"I thought he loved me. I love him." I said. My mum rubbed my back.
"I promise you, everything is going to be okay. You'll get over the pain, but now you have to stay strong. You have to believe in yourself and that it's not your fault."
"It hurts so much mum." I cried out.
"It feels like I'm dying." I explained.
"I thought this was endgame. I trusted him, but now, I don't even know, what was  real and what wasn't."

My heart beated for him and now, it felt as if it was standing still. The air I was breathing, felt like it was suffocating me. My whole body felt as if someone was setting me on fire. Every second felt like eternity. It felt like a nightmare without an end. Why did I have to go through so much pain? Why did I have to let him in? He broke me and I expected something like that to happen. Yet, there was hope I held on to. After I thought I had gotten to know him, I thought we would be real, but why couldn't we be real? How long was he planning on keeping this going before making fun of me? Was I perhaps only s stupid bet?

I cried and cried for hours, till I calmed a bit down. My mum sat next to me the whole time, trying to make me feel better. I was dead. Inside and outside. I looked like a corpse to the outside and felt nothing but pain at the inside.

"You can sleep in the room next to your brother's. This trip will be over in a few days. I hope you'll be fine. If you don't want to, you don't have to go to the trips with us. Just do whatever you please, whatever makes you comfortable." My mum explained. I only nodded as a response, words wouldn't be able to come out without a sob anyways.

I entered the room and unpacked my stuff for the second time today. After that, I layed on my bed, thinking about everything that had happened. What if it was a nightmare? What if everything wasn't real? But this was surely to much for a nightmare. It couldn't be anything but reality. The horrible truth.

After hours of thinking what I had done wrong and why I'd deserve this, I finally fell asleep.

I dreamed about Jimin and I marrying, but unfortunately, I woke up to the sad reality. Jimin and I were far away from marriage. I looked at the clock. It was currently 1pm. God, I had slept for so long.

I took a shower and changed into some shorts and a hoddie. After that, I went down to eat some breakfast. I saw a note on the fridge saying that they went to the beach. I was happy. I had some time for myself. Some time to think about what I'd do with my life. 

I made myself a sandwich and called Nayeon.
"Hello. How's your trip going, Soojin?" She questioned.
"Bad." I answered shortly.
"Why?"
"I saw a message on Jimin's phone." I explained, tears starting to form in my eyes.
" 'It's your baby, Jimin' that's what it said." I was a crying mess as soon as I finished the sentence.
"I'm so sorry, I wish I was there to help you get through it."