if the world was ending | TayNew Songfic

right?

[You may want to listen to the song first before reading,, or maybe even listen to it while reading to get into the mood :) ]

Tay's POV:

I was distracted
And in traffic

It was ironic honestly, for someone who didn't drive. I had a license but I never used it. A year before this I never needed to, after all, I always had a personal chauffer. My chauffer. But even after that, I had enough friends available to drive me anywhere I wanted. I had enough friends to pamper me and shower me with their love and kindness. I had enough loved ones to never need to actually drive a car by myself. But the hell was I doing that day, renting a car out of nowhere and driving it while listening to this song.

I didn't feel it
When the earthquake happened

Disaster really followed me everywhere I went. I chuckled, remembering how the National Disaster Warning Centre even followed me on twitter. But even that couldn't prepare them for this. But even when the car trembled and shook, when the scene in front of me was all but a blur, I felt oddly tranquil. I felt oddly calm. Panic and fear didn't rush into my head nor did shock or anxiety grip my heart. All I thought then was... hin.

But it really got me thinkin'
Were you out drinkin'?

I remembered our dumb arguments whenever we were drunk.

"I love you, Te."

"No, hin. I'm the one who loves you."

"Te!! I said... *hic* me..!! Me, I said-"

"Yes, I love uou-"

"No, I love you-"

"Then I love you more-"

"No, I lave you *hic* WAY more, Te."

"HAH, are you even hearing yourself, hin? You can't evwen talk straight-"

"Becwause I'm not-"

I found myself smiling at the memory. He was adorable when drunk. I was only half-drunk then, and I had been filming us before we starting bickering about this. It was a stroke of luck that everything had been captured, a video that would store this memory forever. I kept the video of it actually. No, of course I did. It would forever be stored in my Ipad, for my eyes only and maybe yours.. if you ever wanted to see it again.

Were you in the living room
Chillin' watchin' television?

Netflix and chill had always been our thing. We would always snuggle under the blanket and cuddle, our body heat intertwining. It warmed my very soul just remembering it. I could still feel the ghost of you embracing me, the feeling of you on my back when it was my turn to sit on your lap. I could still feel you in between my legs when it was your turn to be hugged. I could even faintly smell the shampoo you always used. I could still feel your ear that I always tugged and rubbed on the tip of my fingers. TV time was your favourite time... but was it lonely without me? Did you miss TV time with me as much as I did?

It's been a year now

A year without you.

Think I've figured out how

I didn't want to, but I had to.

How to let you go and let communication die out

How could I not, when you weren't answering my calls?

How could I not, when you weren't replying my texts?