No more

Don't push back

" You cannot find your true self without letting go." - Unknown

9:00 AM
I woke up to a weird dream that I don't remember. How can I forget the dream that I was just dreaming about? Putting the thought aside, I squirmed around on the bed to find my phone. I looked at the time, and it's 9:00 am.

Still lying on the bed, I scrolled through social media for a while until I looked at the time again, and it's almost 10. I got up and walked to the shower. Turning on the shower, something in my mind clicked.

The dream. I suddenly remember a moment of it. I was at the beach. The sky was dark grey, and the water was still. There was a man wearing white standing far away in the water. The water was at his waist level, and he was facing away looking at the sea. Unconsciously, I walked into the water, towards him.  It feels like I was called out. I couldn't see his face, but I feel like I've known him. 

That was it. Whatever that dream was ends just like that. I've never had vivid dreams before, so it was weird to suddenly see that.

My phone rang which brought me back from the thoughts. I grabbed the towel and walked out of the bathroom to pick up my phone. It was Riley.

" Hey. Can I call you back? I'm about to take a shower." I spoke.

" Ah, okay." Riley responds.

I hung up the phone and went back into the bathroom.

After I took the shower, I put the phone on the speaker as I called Riley back.

I set the phone on my dresser and started looking in my closet.

" Hey, boyfriend." I said as the call got connected.

" Good morning, beautiful. Sorry to call. I should have just texted." Riley spoke.

" So why did you?" I chuckled.

" Because I wanted to hear your voice." 

I blushed a bit. "So, what are you doing today?" I asked while rummaging through my closet for an outfit.

" Oh, you know, we are going to see the waterfalls. How about you?"

" I'm going to finish the proposal assignment. It's near deadline."

Today is the second day of the holiday. Riley's family is going on a trip to Switzerland to visit his relatives.  Meanwhile I'm stuck at home finishing my assignments because I flaked out this semester. Also, there's a big exam coming up right after the holiday, so I had to review the lessons. My mom is also going on vacation, she is probably at some beach soaking in the sun and drinking cocktails with her friends. 

I was sad that I had to stay at home alone, but I promise myself that once this semester is over, I can go on a vacation myself. Until then, I have responsibilities if I want to get out of this college hell.

"Ooh, finally. You have been working on it for so long already." Riley responded. " Hey, after you are done, I'm going to take you on a trip."

" Really? Where are we going?" I asked.

" It will be a surprise. Just focus on passing the semester, okay? It will be worth it, I promise."

" Okay." I smiled to myself.

I put on loose T-shirt and sweatpants. Still talking to Riley, I made my way downstairs to make breakfast before I worked on my proposal. Riley took a few pictures to show me the view he was seeing at the waterfalls. 

It was peaceful and perfect for working on my assignments. Most of the neighbors are on vacations too especially the house besides me. 

I was sitting at the counter when my mom facetimes me. 

" Hey, just checking in. Is everything okay?" Mom spoke through the screen. 

" All good here. Are you having fun?" I asked.

" Very." She chuckled. " Hey, you would have love this." 

" Are you on a boat right now?" I asked, noticing the railings in the view. 

" Uh-huh. We are traveling to the island. We are going to stay there for 2 more days before heading back." 

" Ugh, I wish I was there." I sighed. 

" Oh, honey." She said, " Hey, make sure to lock the doors and the windows before you went to bed, okay?" 

I rolled my eyes, " Yes, ma'am. You told me every day." 

" Just reminding. I gotta go, I don't want to keep you from your studying." She spoke. 

" Okay, take lots of pictures for me. Bye!" I waved at her before ending the call.

I sighed loudly and went back to studying. 

Evening came. I made dinner, ate it, went on my phone for a while before heading to my room. I made sure to double checked the doors if I forgot to lock it. I also double checked the kitchen because I don't want to wake up to a fire in the house. I had to felt safe before going to bed. 

Little did I know, I didn't double checked everything in the house.

2:35 am 

I woke up to a sound coming from downstair. I was sleepy so I closed my eyes and went back to sleep. Then another sound. I sit up and look at my phone to see the time. It's past midnight. I opened the door, turned on the light, and walked down. 

I was still half asleep when I got to the bottom of the stair which overlooked the kitchen. That's when I saw a figure at the dining table. It was black so I turned on the kitchen light. My eyes adjust to the brightness before I froze.

There's a man wearing all black, sitting at the dining table, one of his hands swirling a knife on the table. The knife from my kitchen. I couldn't breathe. The worst thing I could ever imagine of was happening right in front of me.

" Did I wake you?" He was referring to me.

I hope you guys can forgive me for the wrong grammar or spellings. English is not my native language, and this is the first time I'm writing the story. Hope you guys enjoy it.