Illusions [Ateez x Reader]

Chapter 41

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My doggo says hi!
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       And I am completely lost

      Oh fuck, what the hell did I do? I shift my eyes around the area I am, trying to figure out if I can find anything familiar to me. A dark road surrounds me, with a few un light apartments lining the street. A small area of trees lines the other side of the street, towering over my height. Tears flood my eyes again as any hope of finding anything familiar plummets as I look around.

       "Alright so if I... if I came from... from that way then I should just head back... back the way I came," I mumbled to myself, breathing picking up. "But I don't remember... don't remember which way I came from."

        Oh goddamnit.

      "Wait," I, once again, mumble to myself like a crazy person. "My phone!"

      My hands immediately jump to my pockets, turning them practically inside out in order to find my phone, but no such luck. Of course I fucking forgot to grab my phone...

        "I need... need to find someway... someway to get back to... back to..." I pause as a choked sob tries to release from my throat. "Oh sh-shit!"

      Tears blur my vision as the sobs are finally released from my throat, racking through my entire body until I am physically shaking. Feeling how weak I am becoming, I sink to the ground quickly, curling my legs up against my chest and hugging them tightly.

       One hand comes up to my mouth, trying to stifle my cries as I finally break down. "Come on Y/N, you have got... got to get yourself together."

       Why I thought that was a good idea to mumble to myself, I have no idea, but safe to say it didn't help. My sobs only grew louder and stronger as tightened my grip on my legs, finger nails digging into the skin of my thighs.

      "Who... who am I fucking kidding?!" I exclaim, through one of my gut wrenching sobs. "Th-there's no, no way they want... want me anywhere n-near them right now. I-I screwed up so so badly."

       I tuck my head into my curled up position, curling up into a ball. The sound of a car startles me from my trance, sobs still coming strong as I look up, only to see a car pass right by me, only a few inches of from hitting me. I scramble up from my spot, wide eyed as I watch the car continue driving down the road like nothing happened.

       "I need, need to go somewhere else," I mutter to myself, sobs finally quieting down to whimpers.

      With as much strength as I can manage, I move my weak body from where I was frozen, slowly beginning to move towards the direction I thought I remembered coming from. A cold breeze glides by me, causing me to bring my arms up and crossing them, now regretting wearing a t-shirt as a pajama top. From now on, I am only wearing sweatshirts, and that's final. As I continue to wander down the street, I curl even further in on myself, trying to protect myself from the cold.

      How could I do this to my boys? They have been really trying and I may have just screwed that up. I'm such a fucking dumbass.

   * Third POV *

    "We have to find Y/N," Mingi mutters to his soulmates.

     "Where do we start though?" Seonghwa questions, almost to himself. "I mean, we have no idea where he/she/they went."

     "I honestly don't think Y/N did either," Jongho pipes in worried.

       Hongjoong's eyes light up as he gets an idea. "Lets head down the way we saw Y/N go, then split off when we need to. We will cover a good amount of area."