Eternal Love [Jenlisa]

Chapter 18

LISA'S POV

"I don't care anymore.if you want to be hurt , then go on"

I sigh heavily as i stare at the girl who's making her way out from my office while fuming in anger.the sound of the door harshly being closed echoed the whole room , making me to felt guilt over the small argument that we had earlier

Letting chaeyoung know about what happened on the day of my monthsarry with jennie is the last thing that i want to happen.i never expect her to barge inside my office and asked me about what just happened a few days ago , which i have no idea about how she could knew about it

I slumped myself down on my chair , both of my hands resting on the armrest as my gaze fell on the desk in front of me , sighing heavily

"She don't deserve you lisa!"

Everyone around me will going to say the same thing , telling me to stop , telling me that i deserve better , but they doesn't know how i truly feel.it's easy for them to tell me what to do , but doing it is not easy like what they thought it is

It's not like i never realize about it , but a small part of me telling that i'll get what i deserve to have if i wait a little bit more longer

Sometimes , the feelings that i have for jennie terrified me.i ever think of giving up , moving on with my life but that woman could easily made me change my mind by a simple smile which it was hardly for me to earn during the old days

It's as if , something inside me telling that i'll regret it a lot if i choose to leave , because i feel like there's something good that will come to me soon ,

or maybe it was just me trying to reassure myself by saying so

"How many times do i need to tell you lisa?stop breaking your heart for someone who doesn't even care about your feelings!"

"Chaeyoung please.."

I used to have a mindset to never let someone's opinion dictate my life , because i used to believe that their opinion will only make the thing become worse instead of helping , because they never get through it and will never know how hard it is to do so

But day by day , i let their opinion to affect my life.because i slowly realize that sometimes love can make us blind.it's as if we already know what's the concequences of doing it , but still chose to go through it.sometimes i'm having a hard time to accept the truth , i often denied it.my sight and hearing lose the power of seeing and hearing realities , and that scared me

"No lisa.right after this one year end ,"

But even after letting myself to live based on their opinion ,nothing has change.i'm still having a hard time to accept the truth even if i was surrounded by people who always be there for me to make sure i'll not going to choose a wrong path

But i still doesn't know if i actually choose a right thing either.my feelings often convince me by telling that i did a right thing

But of course everyone around me will not going to say the same thing

" you need to let her go"

Lisa's face scrunched when she felt a stinging pain on her head , that made her to squeeze her eyes closed.this headache constantly appear everytime she've been thinking too much , when she tire herself out or when she need to undertake a big project for the company

She massage her temple and drew in a long breathe , but groaning slightly when it doesn't reduce even a bit of her headache

"Are you okay lisa?"