Why I'm Sad....

I don't know if i'm sad or if i'm scared. Scared of losing you.

The thought of you leaving hurts, it hurts my soul. You are the best part of me, I didn't know how good life could really be until you came into my life, Everyone is telling me not be sad, but whats so wrong with being sad? I know I pushed you away. I know that I am the reason you're gone I see that now.. And I know that if i start crying now i'll never stop, but what if I don't want to stop?? Why should I have to stop. This world is so dark and terrible it's a dangerous place, but with you oh god with you, you made it slightly less horrible. You brought happiness to my life that I didn't know exsisted... I guess that's why I'm sad..... but honeslty I'm not just sad, I'm broken, I'm hurt. I just want to scream out loud not just the slient scream that's inside my head that won't go away. You were all of my reasons for living, you came into my life when I was so far gone and didn't know what was next, But you brought me back from that place. I just feel so worthless and you have no idea how that feels. You will never have any idea how that feels, you will never know the feel I feel and you might feel something but not this, you will never feel this type of pain, you can't because you're the one who walked away, You're the one who chose the easy way out of this. You are everything that I didn't know I needed.