Downward Spiral (Izuocha)

Chapter 12 The one thing

Midoriya P.O.V.

After being saved by the bell at lunch, we all got back to classes, only Uraraka fully understanding her own question. The rest of the day went by faster than I thought, even if it was hard to keep my eyes open at some points while Ectoplasm was giving us harder math equations than he should have. The bell that signaled the end of the day made many students sigh in relief as it meant the start of the weekend. I put all my notes into my bag and start heading towards Heights Alliance, thinking on what I would do until dinner. However, my ears caught the attention of someone screaming my name more than once and getting louder every time. 

"Deku! Wait up. I want to ask you something." That small sentence made my mind run through all outcomes, starting from the best possible, being that she wanted to be with me, to the worst ever, that would be making a rhetorical question about how lame and useless I am, and of course, my head inclined on getting ready for being completely verbally annihilated, making me start to sweat a small amount. She finally reached me, and i stared into the orbs of chocolate she calls eyes until she finally speaks up, breaking my trance and making my cheeks hit up a small amount. "I was wondering if we could hang out after dinner, maybe Iida can join us too...." She said trailing off at the end. I wanted to question it so that I wouldn't be bothering her but I didn't find a good reason and just replied with a "Yeah, no problem." and one of the fakest smiles I could produce.

Uraraka P.O.V.

OH MY GOD THAT WAS SO NERVE RACKING I AM NOT DOING THAT AGAIN. My true intentions was for me to try and help him with his sleep as I seemed to be the only one that knew to some extent what was going on with him. During lunch I decided to stay quiet for  a few moments since I didn't want to explain to Iida why I was in the male area of the dorms that night and Deku didn't seem to want to talk about it either. Moreover, before I could ask anything I gazed into his emerald eyes that I swear I could hear them to come closer. This small crush is getting out of hand. Truth was, I was really worried for him, so I would normally find myself looking for and at him for periods of time, I wasn't as good as pretending and keeping my poker face like Todoroki.

We walked in a comfortable silence back to the dorms until we both headed our separate ways. His mind seems like it is always rushing while he thinks, and I am never really sure what it is, but I could see that before he would mutter most of it and acknowledge his own thoughts but now it seemed as he let them pass by while he kept his head down, that attributed more to his deadish look. I decided that I would do my little amount of homework now to be able to enjoy the weekend with those who would stay here, as I couldn't visit my parents that were constantly working and even more now that they got a better contract. I knew Iida would be off to visit his family today and Todoroki his mother, which gave me the idea to hang out with him today, knowing it would be the two of us. I just wish that only talking about it  will help him.

Dinner time had arrived and I had spent the last few minutes getting into more comfortable clothes, wearing some sweat pants and a hoodie with a plain shirt underneath, as it was getting colder by the day. I sat down and got my food, only to start darting my eyes across the room to find that distinctive green hair that was untameable. A few minutes later and I see Deku in indoor clothes looking quite tired but with puffy eyes and slouching as he sat down and got food. Once again, he wasn't as very active during the conversation that we would hold during dinner, but would give an occasional smile or short answer. I was excited to maybe have a normal talk with Deku and spend time as friends, not that he would want anything more, but I knew that I had to help him.

Midoriya P.O.V.

As I finish my dinner, I place my plate in the sink and wash it, and as I turn around, I am met with a very angry  'friend' of mine looking down at me with a raging face that would normally destroy me, but I was too tired, and the voices in my head were a constant and I was slowly becoming more accustomed to them. "You really ate that much!? You couldn't feed an 8 year old with that." I was really tired of him, as all he did was get infuriated every time I took a breath near him. "Since when do you care?" I asked, not making eye contact and walking past him. "I DON'T, I just hate seeing people be idiots for no reason." I ignored him and made my way to Uraraka who seemed to be looking at the situation with confusion. "So where do you wanna hang out?" I asked, still feeling quite tired but now getting my spirits up seeing that I would spend time with her.

"M-maybe your r-room?" She stutters out, and takes me by surprise, but I couldn't find anything better so I just nodded and we headed to my room full of All Might merch. She followed behind and as we entered, I realized that neither Todoroki or Iida where at dinner or here, so I started to become a flustered stuttering mess. "S-so, wh-what do you want to do?" I finally said. "Deku, I wanted to talk with you, and I know you are tired but, it may help you, I'm worried." "What do you mean?" I sat in my bed and she followed out of instinct. I wouldn't question it since she seemed dead serious. "Can we talk about your nightmare? Or even so, nightmares? I know that may be a reason why you are so tired." She had a worried face, and I had a lot bottled up, so a crack was bound to form that would spill some of my emotions and secrets.

I broke down. My sobs became stronger than when I would cry alone, and she rapped her arm around my back and got closer. "I-it.... it is MY fault. I cause so much bad...... to those who help me. I.... see them, at night....... telling me that I am no better than the villains I took down." I finally said in between tears and small hiccups. After a while of me just letting it out, she whipped my cheeks clean of the salty water with her hoodie, and made me stare into her eyes before she spoke up. "Deku, it isn't your fault. You did nothing wrong and what happened around you isn't because you weren't strong enough. It was because others made the sacrifice that you also were ready to do because we are heroes, and this is bound to happen." She had a small tear run down her cheek. It was only the surface of what I felt, but her words and embrace seemed to calm me down better than anyone. "Can we stay like this for a while?" I asked. She nodded and kept the embrace until I felt my eyes feel heavy and I placed my head on her shoulder and getting some good sleep. It was the one thing that had helped me.

Heyoo, so it is a bit longer than usual and it is quite late. I know, I believe that some may know why, I had it all planned out, it was all great, but family happened so....... Anyways, I can't believe the amount of reads and votes this is getting and I have an award (#47) somehow like EXCUSE ME? I am just yeboi that likes to do this for fun. Still, I hope you had and have an amazing day, you are special and amazing and loved. I will be seeing you tomorrow hopefully earlier. ヽ(͡◕ ͜ʖ ͡◕)ﾉ