The Baby Project | S.M. Fanfiction

C H A P T E R E L E V E N

WARNING: suicide attempt

Shawn's P.O.V:

"How you could, Shawn!" Ashley yells.

Oh no! So it happens. I look at my phone. There are messages from Ashley and I was really 'busy' to read them.

"Please honey" I get up and I come closer to her. "It is not what it looks like, she-"

"Really?" Ash crosses her arms. 

"She made me do it!" I point at Kaitlin, who is nervously looking for her clothes.

"And you just said 'yes'?! Please don't mix me up" She has tears in her eyes. 

"You know I would never cheat on you, but-"

"But what? Because I have mental breakdown, does it mean that you can make out with my best friend?!" Ashley is shaking, her face is red, her eyes are puffy. 

I want to come really closer to her, but she pushes me away.

"I trusted you, I thought I made you change a little bit, but I see it didn't work at all!" And then she leaves my house. I try to stop her, but she ignores me.

Ashley's P.O.V:

I just can't believe that Shawn cheats on me. With my best friend. When I have a mental breakdown. Why does it happen to me? What do I do wrong?

I go back home. I open the front door and I throw keys on the floor. I see my mom is at home. I go past her, being angry and sad at the same time.

"Honey, are you alright?" She asks but I don't reply.

I go to my room and I slam the door. I sit on my bed and hide my face in my hands. I hear a knock on my door. I still not reply. The door open and I see my mom.

"Ashley, sweetheart, could you tell me what is going on?" She sits next to me.

I take a deep breath. "Shawn cheated on me with Kaitlin" I start crying.

"Honey, please don't cry" She says.

"But I thought that Shawn would understand that I have problems with mental illnesses" I stand up and run away.

I only hear my mom calling me but I don't care. My feelings are hitting me. I can't do it.

I am a nobody. Nobody loves me. I hate myself. I am in a big pain. I wish I was dead. I go to the tool shed. I drag the chair over to where I am. Then I stand on a chair and wrap the rope around my neck.

Then I see SHAWN!? He freezes when he sees me.

"Baby girl, please don't do it!" He begs me.

"Don't call me like that! Please let me go! And what are you doing here?" I yell. 

"I wanted to talk, to say sorry"

"Ah, never mind, leave me alone!"

Shawn stops me, again. "I need you, your-"

"No, you don't need me. You cheated on me. With my best friend"

"Ash, yes, it was my fault, but she manipulated me" I look into his eyes. They scream 'don't do that'.

"I wasn't good enough for you" He has tears in his eyes.

My emotions are hitting me again. I can't do it. I can't commit suicide.

I undo the rope and step off the chair. I run to Shawn and hug him.

"I'm sorry Shawn" I start sobbing.

"Shh, I should be the one who should apologise" He kisses me on a forehead.

"I am just broken, and I can't stand it. I hate myself for everything" I cry.

"No, you deserve everything good. Please don't leave me. I promise I will change" He pulls me in a big hug. His arms make me safe.