Him and I

Him

    I am Zoe. I came to New York last weekend to attend a university called The Saturn University. I am not new around here since I had graduated my elementary school and middle school here in Astoria, New York. Just right after middle school, I moved to Milan, Italy. The biggest reason I had to move to Italy was because of my father.
    Ever since after my mother's death, my father became upset and he thought he can't raise me by himself, so he asked my grandparents to take care of me. Since mom's death, he had got grief, so he had put all his attention into his traveling work. Years later, he suddenly came to me and asked if we live together. Back then, I was already in my senior year. I had got angry when he showed up suddenly. First, I didn't want it. Afterward, I realized I wanted to experience life with my father. It was a really hard decision for me because at that time my boyfriend's mother passed away and I needed to go away. As a result, I hurt my feeling and his feeling as well.
    As I step into the new class, I saw him. "Aiden..." Aiden was my everything, my only lover, brother, and best friend. Even already five years have passed; my attraction level toward him was still irresistible or probably increased. But it does not matter. Now I am just a little stranger to him who betrayed him and hurt him and left him when he needed me the most. Do you wonder how I know he hates me so much? I know for sure because we had the opportunity to stay in contact, but he didn't call me or even texted me.
     *5 years ago* On March 10th, he confessed to me that he had a crush on me since the day he laid his eyes on me. It was the official day that we got together. The most memorable part of his confession was that he prepared our childhood pictures and my favorite snacks which are bins of Cheetos and marshmallows. At that moment, I felt like I was the luckiest girl in the entire world.
    We were childhood friends. Our history started when he moved into the next house of ours. I believe we were like six or seven years old at the time. I was a little girl who was vulnerable, quiet, and alone. On the other hand, Aiden was handsome, intelligent, and always surrounded by other children. He was the one who noticed me first and tried to talk to me first. The cutest part is that when he first reached me he said to me that "I want to be your boyfriend." I blushed and laughed. Even though I ignored him, he always came to me and said, "I want to be your friend." As time passed, we became close friends, so as our families.
  *Present* My endless thought stopped as I met his eyes. I can tell he didn't expect to see me here. You know what, I didn't even think once I would see him at The Saturn University of all universities. He frowned and moved his eyes to the girl who was sitting next to him. I made my move to sit behind Aiden since there was no other free sit in the classroom. As I sit down the first thing I saw was the girl's hand was on his inner thigh. It slightly surprised me because Aiden I know would never allow something like this especially during the class and on my bare eyes. Then suddenly I reminded myself that I am nothing for him now. For the rest of the class time, I could not pull myself together. I do not know whether it is because of Aiden or that history was my least favorite lesson. I swear to God it is the worst and unluckiest day I have ever had. I planned this day would be so much fun making new friends. But just one person made me sink into the past so deeply. Well, I will not blame him for that but still.
    The next moment, the bell over the door tinkled loudly. I was truly delighted to get out of Aiden's presence. I collected my belongings and went to the locker. When I was changing my books and notebooks, I met two girls, Abigail and Mia. Mia, who was a bold-looking girl with small dark eyes, a prominent chin, and long black hair. Abigail, a thin and confident-looking girl with big beautiful blue eyes, a tall nose, and blonde short hair.
    "Are you new around here?" Abigail asked confidently and brightly.
    "Yes," I said nervously as I close the door of my locker.
    "How is your first day going on, so far?" questioned Mia excitedly.
    Part of me didn't want to lie to her that my first day is going perfectly fine; however, I did not just want to tell them everything as soon as I met them. Like, I planned it would be nice but I saw my ex-boyfriend I didn't expect to see him and because of him my day became really bad all of my memories came back. So, I just said, "It is going fine".
They were not new so they told me a lot about this university facility and classrooms and especially about who are "OMG" girls. As we walk toward the cafeteria, Abigail gasped and pointed to the group of hot guys and sexy girls. One of them was Aiden. He looked tall, handsome, and sexy at the same time. I do not know why but now and then, as soon as I see him I can't look away from him.
    "You found someone interesting, " asked Mia, looking questioned at me.
    "No, but who are they?" I asked as I shake my head convincingly.
    "They are the elite group of our university. That--" Abigail interrupted her sentence.
    "Plus, they are total jerks!" Abigail snapped breathlessly.
Mia gave a quick eye roll. "Whatever, Abigail!!! I know you secretly have a crush on Eric. Besides, it does not matter if they are flirting with girls because they are good at all the subjects, sports, and you know what let's say everything. OKAY, Zoe! Let's get back to the introduction. So that blond-haired boy is Eric Salvatore. The black-haired boy who is on the right side of Eric is Alexander Noah. The left side of Eric is Aiden James. Those three girls are Olivia, Margaret, and Gabriela. We name them as "OMG" girls. They are the coolest girls in the school." stopped Mia as we picked up the tray lunch. Then we went to find a sit for ourselves. Most of the conversation during the lunch was not that fun but depressing. I mean I liked them they were so energetic and talkative but they were just talking a lot about those elite guys group and OMG girls.
     "What we are trying to tell you is that just be careful around them. Also, try not to mess up with those boys. If you do that those girls might do anything to you. They do not care about anything else but themselves. '' Abigail said cautiously as she took a massive bite from her food.
    "Okay," I said. Even though I said okay I was not okay. I do not understand how Aiden become so untouchable jerk as the girls said. He was not like that He was so sweet and funny and loyal when I with him. Right at this moment, I decided to how has he been doing all these years....
    As soon as we done our lunch together I went to the chemistry class. When I open the door Aiden caught my eyes. I can't believe it three times in one day.
     However, I shot my shot to start a conversation with him.
     "Hi, how you doing Aiden?"
My thought was racing right now like I am about to explode. How will he react? Is he going to say something back to me? Just like how I expected he smirked almost I could see the spark of hate inside his eyes. It broke my heart and hurt my feelings. Again I can't pull myself together because of the memory of five years ago. Then I told myself that I seriously need to get over it; just like him.
     "Do you know her Aiden?" said the same girl I saw him in the first class. Looking slightly surprised.
     "No, I don't"
For the second time in my life, the bell rang at the right moment. So I pulled myself and my belongings together, secretly wishing not to have the same class with Aiden again. Just then someone took my wrist and walk toward the end of the great hall. To my surprise he was Aiden. Suddenly, he pushed me against the wall. I didn't know what was happening and didn't know how to react. He looked bad-tempered at the same time he looked incredibly sexy. We were both quiet for a few moments. And then he broke the deadly silence between us.
     "You left me five years ago when I needed you the most. And now you suddenly came here trying to talk to me like nothing happened? Eh!?" he whispered throatily.
     "Back then, the two women who I loved the most left me at the same time and even same day. I fell apart, and I was wounded deeply. All these five years I was trying to heal my wound but you just reappeared and my chest ached again." his voice cracked and grew louder and louder every time.
     "I truly am sorry that I left you. But I had to. Can you at least hear my explanation for a moment? Or you can talk try to talk to me. I am still--" I said, trying to hide the fact that I am about to cry.
     "I fucking do not need your pity. You are nothing to me but a stranger now. Oh, yeah, also do not even attempt to talk to me or even look at me again. I am sick in tired of you and your presence." said he sarcastically almost like making me feel his pain.
I can't hold back my tears. It was just too much to bear. It hurts as he stabbed me right into my heart.
    "I am so sorry. Okay," I said, sobbing "I will not greet you or talk to you. I will be like nobody. Bye!!!"
After my sudden conversation with Aiden, I lost my energy so I directly went to my apartment. When I think about the conversation my tears started to blur my vision. And yet, I understood the fact that I have to get over him and the memory we made already. I repeated a hundred or maybe a thousand times that he is not old Aiden anymore, I do not know him.
All of a sudden my phone vibrated. It was Mia. As soon as I pick up my phone, she started to talk rapidly.
    "Hi, Zoe! I had received a message from Abigail that one of the students is throwing a party. Do you want to go with us?"
    "I am not sure I could make it," I said, still my mind is on Aiden.
Then I wondered why I am suffering because of Aiden. I need to meet new people this might help.
    "What time does it gonna start?"