I'm not who you think I'm

MLK

I'm tired of trying hard to stand

I'm tired of being strong

I'm tired of running

I'm tired of carrying my dreams alone

This isn't real

I'm tired of fooling everyone

I lie when I say I don't care

I'm not healed

But it hurts trying to convince someone that you're not okay

And what hurts the most is however I try to explain this I can't seem to be close

I think being alone is easier but it's not

I crave to be seen through

I crave for something real

I crave for quietness for peace

I just want to lay in silence with you holding my hand

I want to break and crumble and be put together again by you without making a big deal

I want to laugh for real this time

I want my heart to smile

I know you aren't my answer

I know

But my soul aches for you when it gets too hard

I want to be fooled by the idea that you could save me