Going through life

let me introduce myself...

      Alex's intro

Let me introduce myself  my name is Xzandria but you can call me Alex... since these dumbasses think they can pronounce it Alexandra...God it's simple as hell it's pronounced how it's spelled... but anyways I am 5'3, I am 15½, I have black and purple locks that are past my shoulders , I have one tattoo that says Love will never be forgotten,  I am a stem (I dress like a stud and I dress like a female), I dress how I feel, I'm a freshman, I am a creative person , I go to THS, I  have a bad temper, I don't let ANYONE push me around, I am the oldest child on both sides, and I been through many things that caused me to change. But let me stop yapping about my looks and how I act and get this story started.

   

           (Alex's thoughts )

     I just wish tht my mother and other people  knew how I feel about guys.. everyday we have this same talk that I might b confused...  she just doesn't understand that out of all relationships I been in with females all of them were great until they cheated on me, wanted to meet my parents,  wanted me to come out to my parents, or they felt like I was ashamed of them. All I want her to know is that I know what I want,  if I was confused I wouldn't just be dating females. I would be dating females and males back to back.  No offence to the bisexuals(I feel like y'all  are probably talking shit right now.). I believe that love is love no matter what race, gender, or religion. It's just hard trying to keep the one that you love a secret. Shit even having a cover-up is hard to deal with. What guy in their right mind would date a real nigga like me??? People just dont think.. It just makes me feel like I am ashamed of who I am,  of who I am dating,  and it makes me feel like Im cheating on the girl I love... it's too much to go through, remembering what they like, when their birthday is, texting them all the time and  Deleting text shit..  it's just way too much. I am kind of a good child I can't say I put her through too much as my friends put their mothers through. Maybe if she knows and  realized how bad I saw my father treated her and she see the past relationships I had with guys  she would understand.

        I put my earrings in my ears before I put  purple boxers, camo pants*sags them a lil * , my  red n black jordan socks, red n black Jordans , my Nike sports bra, black T-shirt, and my  black pullover on..."damn I look sexy". I walked into the bathroom, done my daily hygiene and put my locks in a low ponytail. "OK seems like I am ready to take a few pictures for insta". I  took out my Galaxy and took 4pictures. "That should be good for my fav and least fav people " I grab my bookbag from the door kisses the cross from my grandmother's necklace. "Today's gonna be a good day grandma.. I know it ".